Newbie/Intro
This is a C&P from my intro on the pregnancy loss board, but I thought that I would intro here as well.
It has taken me a little time to actually be ready to do this. On April 1st of this year my husband and I had a miscarriage. I was 6 weeks along. The pregnancy was not planned, but we were happy none the less. Losing the pregnancy was extremely hard. My husband and I have always wanted a family. I started to let myself get really excited about our future baby. Seemed like everyone around me was getting pregnant and I was over the moon to be having a little one of my own. I had been trying to not get too excited about the pregnancy because I was afraid that I would end up having a miscarriage.
The morning of April first I woke up feeling fine. Went to work like I normally do. While at work, I gave in and bought my first items for the baby. Half way through the day, I went to the bathroom for the 10th time. It was then that I saw bleeding. It had really been my fear. I kept checking the TP every time I tinkled because I was afraid of bleeding. I began to freak and left work immediately. On my way home I called the hubby and had him meet me at home so that we could go to the hospital together.
To make a long story short, I ended up losing the pregnancy that night. I've been sad from time to time since then. It kills be that it had to be on April fools day. Feel a little like the world and my body played the cruelest joke on me. The day the items that. Had ordered for the baby arrived, I cried the second I saw them. They sit in the back of my closet now.
I didn't go back on b/c after the miscarriage. I guess a part of me is afraid that it'll in some ways make it difficult for me to get and stay pregnant.
Re: Newbie/Intro
I'm very sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board. I hope you find support here.
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
and GBCB
BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
~All AL always welcome~
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1 3.16.12. mmc 5.7.12 at 11 weeks ~Avery Cameron~
BFP #2 12.12.12. mmc 1.22.13 at 10 weeks ~Theodore Michael~
D&C #2 Chromosome analysis results: Translocation Trisomy 14
My RPL Testing: Homozygous MTHFR, normal karyotype
DH's karyotype results: Robertsonian Translocation 13:14
BFP #3 9.10.13 mc at 4 weeks~Our little May Flower~
BFP #4 10.13.13- Our Rainbow Baby, a little girl, arrived June 25, 2014!
the day I miscarried, I told my hubby that I felt like a fool for ordering them. I had been saying that I wasn't going to buy anything until we were in the clear, but I got so excited and gave in. Felt like a slap in the face later that day. I literally started to bleed like... an hour or so after I placed the order.
I hope we do to! I'll be keeping you in my prayers.