I am literally the worlds worst parent. I never have energy to play with A anymore. I can play for about an hour between each nap for him. after that I really dont' have the energy anymore, so he self plays with his toys.
Sometimes I think about how much better off he would be in day care with me being pregnant and unable to get myself doing things.
I hate this about myself. I try to do better every day. Most days we go somewhere in the car because I don't know what else to do with him.
I always wanted to be a mom, but I suck at entertaining and stimulating my child. I honestly deep down think that maybe the reason he doesn't babble and baby talk is because I didn't do enough to be stimulating at all hours of his awake time.
In the end: I am pretty sure I am somehow detrimentally screwing up my child by being around, and being pregnant again I am worried I might do the same with this one.
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Thanks ladies.
I genuinely appreciate the support of this board. Especially since these are feelings I have been struggling with for a little while now (basically since I finally mentioned his issues with the babbling) I just wish pregnancy wasn't so draining and I could be the mom I always envisioned myself being instead of praying that he can be chill with his toys while I sit and talk to him.
I used to do this. And to make you feel better I let Dax and Adeline entertain eachother now. I snot and play with them about three times a day. I feel horrible like I should be more involved but....eh. things need to be done around the house. When I'm lazy I try to remind myself to play instead of sit there. As long as I'm on the floor the kids love it I dont even have to do anything.
YOU are way too hard on yourself, sister. You are doing a great job growing a perfectly healthy micro human and caring for another perfectly healthy mini human.
I could not imagine being pregnant while taking care of such a little one and the house.
Babbling is just now happening for both of my LOs so, I would not worry. Like, at all.
You're awesome, Jessa!