Basically last year my best friend and I found out we were pregnant 1 week apart. A few weeks later we lost our angel due to a non-devoloping heartbeat. This past October, on my due date, she had her daughter (my god-daughter). I love her so much, but I have never been able to hold her or think about her without thinking of the "what ifs". I know its bad but some things you just can't help. Well I got a video today of her crawling for the first time, and while I'm really happy and a proud god-mother, it also breaks my heart.
I am so sorry for your loss and for rough days like today! I can't imagine what you must be going through!
3TC March Siggy Challenge: Funny Internet Meme Age: Me 26, DH 27, Married Oct. 10, 2009
,TTC since March 2012
Problem: Irregular menstruation, unexplained
Nov&Dec-Provera because of no period after 35+ days
First RE appt 1/10/2013
Tests: TSH (normal), Prolactin (normal), SA (abnormal)
Hysteroscopy (normal) and PCOS labs (negative/normal) 1/15/2013
2/1/13- HPT BFP but Beta Hcg was negative Plan: Femara + Trigger + IUI in April if no real BFP before then
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I'm so sorry for your loss and that you are having a difficult time. I had a loss as well and my due date is fast approaching in 2 weeks and I have found myself increasingly sad and sensitive to reminders. It is such a hard process to deal with the "what ifs". I know I find myself stuck in the "it just isn't fair" mode more often. Hugs to you!
Me: 31, DH: 31, TTC since April 2011. "unexplained" dx
Initial testing through OB in August 2012, including HSG and SA
Sept 2012 BFP, m/c at 7weeks.
Met with RE March 2013
August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.
Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>
PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.
I am so sorry. That sounds like it would be very difficult to cope with. Being happy for your friend and grieving your loss at the same time must be really hard. ((Hugs))
** After 2 1/2 years of Unexplained IF, 2 failed medicated cycles, and 4 failed IUI's - our baby girl came to us through the miracle ofMini IVF! **
Re: One of those days (m/c &amp; child mentioned)
3TC March Siggy Challenge: Funny Internet Meme
Age: Me 26, DH 27, Married Oct. 10, 2009 ,TTC since March 2012
Problem: Irregular menstruation, unexplained
Nov&Dec-Provera because of no period after 35+ days
First RE appt 1/10/2013
Tests: TSH (normal), Prolactin (normal), SA (abnormal)
Hysteroscopy (normal) and PCOS labs (negative/normal) 1/15/2013
2/1/13- HPT BFP but Beta Hcg was negative
Plan: Femara + Trigger + IUI in April if no real BFP before then Bloggy Blog!
wrapping my cyber arms around you and squeezing you as hard as I can
***3T July Siggy Challenge: Favorite Summer Drink Peach Bellini***
Me: 36, DH: 41 TTC: Feb 2011
Dx uterine fibroids & MFI = Varicocele causing decreased SA
*** 12/2011: IUI #1 50mg Clomid = BFN ***
*** 8/2012: IUI #2 100mg Clomid = BFN ***
*** 11/2012: IUI #3 150mg Clomid & Metmorphin 150mg = BFN ***
*** 1/2013: Changed RE's & Urologists for more focus on MFI ***
*** 4/2013: IUI#4 Femara & Follistim = BFFN ***
*** 5/2013: IUI#5 Femara, Follistim & Bravella = BFFN ***
***6/2013: Taking a much needed break***
Initial testing through OB in August 2012, including HSG and SA
Sept 2012 BFP, m/c at 7weeks.
Met with RE March 2013
Dx: Unexplained Infertility, probable endometriosis
Feb-April 2013: Femara + TI: BFN
May - September 2013: Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI#1-4 = BFN
IVF # 1 November 2013: transferred 1 perfect blast = BFN
IVF # 2 April 2014: Endo scrape, transferred 2 blasts = BFP!! (first ever!), CP
FET #1 June 2014: transferred 2 blasts = BFFN
New Dx: Repeat Implantation Failure
IVF # 3 November 2014 = BFP!! Beta #1 9dp5t 272 Beta # 2 11dp5dt 626
It's Twins!
*everyone welcome*
** After 2 1/2 years of Unexplained IF, 2 failed medicated cycles, and 4 failed IUI's - our baby girl came to us through the miracle of Mini IVF! **
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Me 32 :: DH 41
TTC since November, 2011
DH's SA : Excellent
Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012
DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD
Treatments: 6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN
3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase"
September - December, 2013: Break to lose weight and get healthy
40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"
February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP
Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!!
1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp
2nd u/s 4/29: hb at 166 bmp. Graduated from RE!!
TEAM PINK!
Baby girl arrived on Thanksgiving day weighing 7lbs 6oz and measuring 20 inches