Late Term and Child Loss

TTCAL CheckIn

Hello Ladies,

Welcome to Friday TTCAL CheckIn!

I hope I can find you all well and positive this week! Please don't be shy in asking the PGAL/PAL ladies questions if you have them. Lots of baby dust on all of you!

Where are you in your TTCAL journey?

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?

QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

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Re: TTCAL CheckIn

  • imageMrs Nice:
    Hello Ladies,

    Welcome to Friday TTCAL CheckIn!

    I hope I can find you all well and positive this week! Please don't be shy in asking the PGAL/PAL ladies questions if you have them. Lots of baby dust on all of you!

    Where are you in your TTCAL journey? Anxious to start... Have signs of first ovulation signs but no 1st aunt flo yet...

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
    MFM appr thurs...

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL?
    Still honestly feel bitter and sad...

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    I know it's WAY to soon to start til at least next month but I also know if we had a healthy pregnancy the baby would be born around valentines day and my birthday... And we would get a bfp around father's day... I know it's a bad idea and we won't be doing it but it's still on my mind....
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    DD 9-10-10 DS 5-3-13 our sweet angel boy
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  • Where are you in your TTCAL journey? Cycle 5 CD 10

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not really.

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? Funny this is the week to ask this. Normally I just try to think positive thoughts, being happy for them that they dont have to face what we face. This last weekend however, it was really hard. I saw a TON of them. I just kept thinking that all of them will get to hold their babies, while all I have is a box of ashes to hold. I cried a lot, feeling very sorry for myself. But I know I would not wish this on my worst enemy, so I cant take it out on them either. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Thinking about my DH. I have been thinking about how hard this has been for me, wanting to get pregnant again, wondering what is wrong with me that we are not. Then on Sunday, my DH broke down in tears, just holding onto me and saying "We will get pregnant again, we WILL." It broke my heart, and also took me outside of my head. It was a good reminder that this is so important for him too. 

    Lilypie - (qptF)


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  • imageNoethola:
    Where are you in your TTCAL journey? Cycle 5 CD 10

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not really.

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? Funny this is the week to ask this. Normally I just try to think positive thoughts, being happy for them that they dont have to face what we face. This last weekend however, it was really hard. I saw a TON of them. I just kept thinking that all of them will get to hold their babies, while all I have is a box of ashes to hold. I cried a lot, feeling very sorry for myself. But I know I would not wish this on my worst enemy, so I cant take it out on them either.nbsp;

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Thinking about my DH. I have been thinking about how hard this has been for me, wanting to get pregnant again, wondering what is wrong with me that we are not. Then on Sunday, my DH broke down in tears, just holding onto me and saying "We will get pregnant again, we WILL." It broke my heart, and also took me outside of my head. It was a good reminder that this is so important for him too.nbsp;


    Hugs! I hope it happens very soon for you! It can be very heartbreaking to see the men we see as so strong break down...
    DD 9-10-10 DS 5-3-13 our sweet angel boy
  • imageMommytoAngel:
    imageNoethola:
    Where are you in your TTCAL journey? Cycle 5 CD 10 Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not really. QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? Funny this is the week to ask this. Normally I just try to think positive thoughts, being happy for them that they dont have to face what we face. This last weekend however, it was really hard. I saw a TON of them. I just kept thinking that all of them will get to hold their babies, while all I have is a box of ashes to hold. I cried a lot, feeling very sorry for myself. But I know I would not wish this on my worst enemy, so I cant take it out on them either.nbsp; Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Thinking about my DH. I have been thinking about how hard this has been for me, wanting to get pregnant again, wondering what is wrong with me that we are not. Then on Sunday, my DH broke down in tears, just holding onto me and saying "We will get pregnant again, we WILL." It broke my heart, and also took me outside of my head. It was a good reminder that this is so important for him too.nbsp;
    Hugs! I hope it happens very soon for you! It can be very heartbreaking to see the men we see as so strong break down...

    It is indeed. I know its hard to wait, but you will get there!! 

    Lilypie - (qptF)


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    "Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."


  • Where are you in your TTCAL journey? 

    I have finally ovulated! (charting and temping indicate it happened) We are still benched this cycle, but since I have now ovulated I am anticipating the return of my period. I am still waiting for my first one since our loss...59 days later and still waiting. But now I know it is coming. 

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? 

    Not an appt, but my DH is going to a conference down in CA the week of 6/10 - 6/14. I have decided to take a mini vacation and meet him down there mid week. If my body is back on track after this last ovulation and my predicted coming one in June, I will ovulate that week. My birthday is also the 16th, so I would love to conceive that week, a little birthday miracle and present. But I know I really have no control and just have to cross everything,except my legs :) haha!

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? 

    For awhile I was really ok seeing pregnant women. I wasn't showing a ton when we lost our daughter, but now that I am reaching the point where I would have been very visibly pregnant, seeing women who are is painful. We took our son to open gym today and there were three obviously pregnant women and I could hardly look at them. I am so happy for them and wish them no ill will, but I want to be them, I SHOULD be one of them.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? 

    I am working to be happy this week. The last few weeks have really been trying for my little family and it feels like we take a step forward and get knocked back two. So this week I am really concentrating on all the things that are going right for us and not dwelling on the setbacks. Plus Monday is my DH birthday and we need to celebrate something fun! 

    Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.

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  • Where are you in your TTCAL journey?  We just started trying this cycle, I got my first positive OPK today.

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?  I saw my RE last week, but unless something changes I don't go back for two months when we'll check to make sure my meds (metformin) are the right dosage.

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL?  I don't mind it so much if it's just a random woman I don't know.  But there is a pregnant woman at work that is a few weeks further along than I should be, so it's hard seeing her.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?Just a little stressed about making sure we have sex enough since I am in my FW.  We last had sex on Wednesday but my OPKs weren't positive yet.  I had planned on tonight, but MH has mentioned several times how tired he is tonight and how he wants to just do nothing.  I figured my seduction ploy wouldn't work, so I came clean about the positive OPK and he flipped out, saying it will feel forced.  He's never told me in the past that he didn't want to know when I am ovulating, so I didn't know telling him would backfire.  Hopefully he'll be in the mood later, or maybe we can get it in in the morning.
    Lilypie - (fm2j)

    Lilypie - (YesX)

     My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks.  Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!

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  • Where are you in your TTCAL journey? cd 8

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? 
    nope
     
    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL?
    Still have a hard time just from a loss standpoint. It will be easier once I am pregnant I think.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    Wanting to be pregnant. I got a new BBT and I'm excited...high temps the last two days, almost looks like O but I know it's not because it's only cd 8! and a new bbt the last two days so I bet that's why. I'm excited to actively ttc this cycle!

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  • imageMommytoAngel:
    imageNoethola:
    Where are you in your TTCAL journey? Cycle 5 CD 10 Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not really. QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? Funny this is the week to ask this. Normally I just try to think positive thoughts, being happy for them that they dont have to face what we face. This last weekend however, it was really hard. I saw a TON of them. I just kept thinking that all of them will get to hold their babies, while all I have is a box of ashes to hold. I cried a lot, feeling very sorry for myself. But I know I would not wish this on my worst enemy, so I cant take it out on them either.nbsp; Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Thinking about my DH. I have been thinking about how hard this has been for me, wanting to get pregnant again, wondering what is wrong with me that we are not. Then on Sunday, my DH broke down in tears, just holding onto me and saying "We will get pregnant again, we WILL." It broke my heart, and also took me outside of my head. It was a good reminder that this is so important for him too.nbsp;
    Hugs! I hope it happens very soon for you! It can be very heartbreaking to see the men we see as so strong break down...

    so hard.... last weekend when we buried our baby, my dad sang "daddy's little girl" to H. Yeah. we both sobbed like babies. It's hard to see them in pain. 

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    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
      

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
    Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013

    BFP # 2 8/7/14 EDD 4/22/15
    Please be our rainbow!!

    **All AL Welcome**

  • Jumping in late here, but I'm so excited to be TTC. DH and I had a talk last week and he said he'd be ready to TTC in August.  This afternoon, we talked again and he's ready to go ahead and start now.

     

    Where are you in your TTCAL journey?  Cycle 1, CD 9

    Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?  Nope

    QOTW: How well do you handle seeing pregnant woman now that you are TTCAL? I'm new to TTCAL, but so far I've done okay with pregnant women.  It's terrible, but the first thing that pops into my head when I see a pregnant woman is "I hope you don't lose your baby" and not in a snarky way, but in a genuine "I don't want anyone to feel the pain I've felt" kind of way.  It will be interesting to see if that changes.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Just excited and terrified all at the same time.   Our last two pregnancies were both surprises, so we've never actually actively TTC before.  I used to do FAM to avoid pregnancy, so I know how to chart/temp/etc, I'm just super nervous that it won't happen for us, or that we will get pregnant and have a miscarriage.  Then I start to daydream and I start getting excited about the possibility of a rainbow baby.  I can already tell that if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant, this pregnancy will be a crazy emotional roller coaster.

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