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Trouble TTC
RunCC37
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Ok, sure, hit me over the head one more time!!
RunCC37
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in Trouble TTC
Just a quick vent to those who will understand:
I'm a teacher in a K-6 building. I'm walking down the hall on my prep on my way to the copy room. One of the 6th Grade classes has their door open and are in the midst of watching the health video about conception. I catch sight of a diagram of the uterus, Fallopian tubes, and ovaries. And there goes that pretty little egg making its way to the uterine wall for implantation. Oh, if only that were happening for all of us right now!!!
I'm trying to focus on the positive rather than the fact that the universe is hitting me over the head yet again. So here's the positive: it is possible that we had conception just two days ago and maybe, just maybe, that zygote is dividing and multiplying, and will implant in a few days. Another positive: a colleague saw me gawking in the hall, and so I opened up to her about my struggles with IF. I didn't tell her every little detail, but enough for her to offer her unconditional support. It's nice to know one more person is out there praying for us!!
And now a question to make an attempt at a GTKY: what are your tricks for keeping it together when you get blindsided?
**SIGGY WARNING**
Me: 32 DH: 35 TTC#1 since March 2012
Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo,
Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome
IUI #1-5: BFN
Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN
IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403
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Re: Ok, sure, hit me over the head one more time!!
That's awesome that you had the opportunity to open up to a co-worker
I like to have at least one support at work for the days I get not so good calls from the RE and need a lending ear or a shoulder to cry on.
Those videos make me so angry sometimes because they make it look so damn easy!!!! I always think, how can people "accidentally" get pregnant?! It just seems unreal to me. If only it were that easy.
I am a pretty good faker like Naria was saying
I can act like nothing has phased me or I'm having a great day for a little while until I can remove myself and ugly cry it out!
That is great that you were able to open up to a co-worker. I actually had lunch with one of my co-workers on Wednesday and told her all about our struggles with IF and about the new plan for going forward. She was surprisingly really understanding and supportive. The more people I open up to it seems the more I am surprised about how great and supportive people are.
GTKY: I tend to use humor to deflect real emotions as a general coping mechanism which has helped me with IF. For example every Friday morning my office has a meeting to go over the calendar, etc. This morning all the ladies got on the topic of their pregnancies and whether they had morning sickness etc. I chimed in with "well, with Flash I had lots of morning sickness." (flash is my basset hound). Everyone kind of laughed and moved on to a different subject. If it is something that hits me out of no where that I can't just deflect with humor I tend to eat my emotions away -- not the healthiest way to cope, but a little chocolate goes a long way to making me feel better. Just keeping it real.
FX for you this cycle! Really hoping this cycle is the one for you! ((HUGS))
**************SIGGY WARNING**************
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Me 32 :: DH 41
TTC since November, 2011
DH's SA : Excellent
Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012
DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD
Treatments: 6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN
3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase"
September - December, 2013: Break to lose weight and get healthy
40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"
February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP
Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!!
1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp
2nd u/s 4/29: hb at 166 bmp. Graduated from RE!!
TEAM PINK!
Baby girl arrived on Thanksgiving day weighing 7lbs 6oz and measuring 20 inches
I am so glad you were able to open up to a co-worker! Most of my co-workers know what we are going through so It's nice when they want to check in to see how I am doing.
My tricks for keeping it together? You ladies!!
3TC March Siggy Challenge: Funny Internet Meme
Age: Me 26, DH 27, Married Oct. 10, 2009 ,TTC since March 2012
Problem: Irregular menstruation, unexplained
Nov&Dec-Provera because of no period after 35+ days
First RE appt 1/10/2013
Tests: TSH (normal), Prolactin (normal), SA (abnormal)
Hysteroscopy (normal) and PCOS labs (negative/normal) 1/15/2013
2/1/13- HPT BFP but Beta Hcg was negative
Plan: Femara + Trigger + IUI in April if no real BFP before then Bloggy Blog!
I think I can learn a thing or two from this GTKY! Right now whenever someone in the office says I should have a baby I respond back like your average 4 year old by saying - no YOU should have a baby!
This has varying levels of effectiveness depending on the age and gender of the person I am talking to.
I'd love to be a fly on the wall and see the reaction you get out of that response!
Thanks, everyone, for your positive vibes