Trouble TTC

BAM!!! vent....

So remember my post a few days ago.... feeling so hopeful and positive.... Well today (figuratively speaking of course) I just got hit by a freaking bus....

A friend who has 4 kids youngest age 5 just announced she is prego and they weren't trying and she is shocked, then a friend decided to start trying and it worked the first month, then a friend announces she is 10 weeks along and continued to talk about how she will have 2 under 2 and life is going to get crazy.... ugh...

 So I as I sit here pondering on all this new info I can't help but start sulking for the first time in 2 months about how I just wish it would happen... sitting at day 26 wondering if we are moving on to our next round of clomid or if we will have the thrill of a lifetime in just a few short days.... Man, I felt so good a few days ago... why do I all of their luck to upset  me.

 How are you all dealing???... it is crazy thinking of all of you out there in the same boat... yet I feel so very alone here.

 

BabyFruit Ticker

Re: BAM!!! vent....

  • So weird.. The reason why I got on this board today was because I was a little down today.

    I too, am trying to get pregnant. Been off birth control for 2 years, did clomid for 4 months and letrozole (sp) 2 months, done 1 IUI and have had a HSG.

    I was in good spirits all this month thinking that I am ok with not getting pregnant until the end of summer. But then out of the blue the last couple of days everyone is pregnant. And when I ask how long they have been trying they tell me 1 month! Now, I am excited and happy for them? But it instantly puts me in sad mood?.  I am from a small community so we keep a lot of things to our self. So, when they ask when we are going to have a baby? I just say.. Whenever I get pregnant. J

    So, after this long post.. Just know I am in the same boat as you! It?s hard. I cry. I pray no period and this is the month.. Then I do it all again the next month... But I tell myself IT will happen. And that's what keeps me going.  Good Luck to you!

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  • For me, some days are good, some days are bad.  And sometimes it doesn't hurt me to hear about pregnancy and be around babies, and somedays I can't take it.  Honestly, I just take it day by day (as corny as that sounds) and I've been trying to focus on other things (buying a house, getting a better job, etc.) while the time passes and we are benched from trying. 

    I've found that being open with some of our friends and family has really helped me.  Also, when I really feel sad, I come on this board and talk to others because it helps lift my spirits.  I hope you feel better soon, HUGS

    IVF #1 Oct 2013- cancelled 
    IVF #2 Mar 2014- success.... baby girl born 11/28/14
    FET #1 Mar 2016- baby boy due 12/16/16


  • I had a really hard day yesterday, so naturally today was my first bad "facebook" day. I logged into facebook to right away see an ultrasound posted from a friend's wife. I knew she was pregnant, but seeing the picture really made my heart feel like there were claws digging into it. I blocked her (just for a little while). We aren't close, so I really don't care. Nothing on facebook had ever hurt me like that before. Totally not her fault, but whatever.

    It's hard. It's SO hard. Would it be better if we never had to encounter pregnant people ever, anywhere? I don't know. Maybe, but part of me thinks that some of the TTC hope resides in knowing that one day we might be the ones telling our families and posting things on facebook.

    I have swings too, good days and bad days. I'm sorry today is a bad one for you. Good luck, hopefully this will be the month!

    Don't expect any replies, and stop PMing me. This account is no longer being used and is waiting for the bump gods to deactivate it.
  • RunCC37RunCC37 member
    Sorry you are down right now. Hang in there! Hopefully your good news is a few days away!
    **SIGGY WARNING**

    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • So sorry you are having a rough day.  Some days are harder than others.  Sending ((hugs)) your way.  

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    Me 32 :: DH 41

     TTC since November, 2011

    DH's SA : Excellent

    Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012

    DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD

    Treatments:  6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN

    3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase" 

    September - December, 2013:  Break to lose weight and get healthy

    40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"  

    February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP

     Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!! 

    1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp 

    2nd u/s 4/29: hb at 166 bmp.  Graduated from RE!!

    TEAM PINK! 

    Baby girl arrived on Thanksgiving day weighing 7lbs 6oz and measuring 20 inches

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  • jfb29jfb29 member
    imageIntuitiveBlue:

    The only thing that helps me is to repeat the following:

    "This is not about me!" (I mean, someone else's pregnancy ISN'T about you any more than your eventual pregnancy will be about them.)

    Sorry y'all are having rough days. Hang in there. ((hugs)) 

    This is great advice IntuitiveBlue!  Easier said than done some days, but so true.  Hugs to all of you who need them!

    TTC #1 Since 7/2011

    Me: 30, PCOS with anovulation
    DH: 38, Low Morph & DE
    Rx: Metformin 500mg

    Cycle #1: Clomid 100mg + Ovidrel = No Response, Canceled
    Cycle #2: Clomid 150mg + Ovidrel = No Response, Canceled
    Cycle #3: Clomid 150mg + Follistim + Ovidrel = No response, Canceled

    Cycle #4: Femara 7.5mg + Gonal-f + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP!!!!

     

    ~ EDD 03.26.14 ~

  • rox825rox825 member
    That's a lot of announcements in a short time, sorry you're having a tough day. Pregnancy announcements are the worst

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
    Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
    Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
    Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!

  • Thank you all so much for chatting with me. So helpful coming from people feeling the same roller coaster feelings that I am going through... I know this journey will be over one day and we will all hold babies in our arms and we won't even think about how hard it has been... But until that day of joy hugs to all and thanks for being there!
    BabyFruit Ticker
  • I feel you.  So many preg announcements lately.  All were conceived easily.  I lost it on Mother's Day after being on FB with everyone talking about how great it is to be a mom and then a preg announcement.  I try to tell myself it will be me one day. It is so stressful and upsetting getting BFN every month. Our time will come. Hang in there.  
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    DX: Unexplained
    6 Failed IUIs (Clomid and Gonal F).  
    IVF #1 began August 2013- BC, 4 days of Estrace, stimmed with Gonal F and Menopur, Ganirelix, 9R 5M 5F, Medrol and Doxycycline, 5 day transfer of 2 early blastocysts- good quality, Progesterone, Estrace, and baby aspirin, BETA on 9/20 BFN,   IVF #2 began September 2013, stimming with Gonal F (higher dose) and Menopur, Ganirelix, 18R 14M 9F with ICSI, 5 day transfer of 2 BBs one was starting to hatch, 2 frosties: 1  BB and 1 AC, BETA on 10/21, BFN BETA was a 5- chemical 
    Getting some more testing and trying to figure out what the issue is before FET in December, started acupuncture on 11/10, RLP and some other BW nothing major to report except slightly high Prolactin. Prolactin was slightly high when I started with my RE and I already had an MRI which was Neg.  Endo biopsy=negative.  WTF is wrong with us???
    12/18/13 FET of 1 BB and 1 AC.  Hoping for a miracle.  Beta 12/26 Low BETA-8 2nd BETA 5- chemical
    After 3 failed transfers IDK where to go from here.  Still no real answers as to why this isn't working.  Getting a second opinion in February and looking into immune testing.  
    2/14- NEW RE- Immune testing showed a partial dq alpha match with DH- On prednisone and did intralipids prior to transfer.  3/14 Lupron, gonal f, menopur, HGH.  ER 15 mature all 15 fertilized!  5dt of an early blast grade 1 and an expanded blast grade 2.  BETA on 4/21.  1 grade 2 embryo frozen
    BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121.  US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE.  EDD 12/28


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