So remember my post a few days ago.... feeling so hopeful and positive.... Well today (figuratively speaking of course) I just got hit by a freaking bus....
A friend who has 4 kids youngest age 5 just announced she is prego and they weren't trying and she is shocked, then a friend decided to start trying and it worked the first month, then a friend announces she is 10 weeks along and continued to talk about how she will have 2 under 2 and life is going to get crazy.... ugh...
So I as I sit here pondering on all this new info I can't help but start sulking for the first time in 2 months about how I just wish it would happen... sitting at day 26 wondering if we are moving on to our next round of clomid or if we will have the thrill of a lifetime in just a few short days.... Man, I felt so good a few days ago... why do I all of their luck to upset me.
How are you all dealing???... it is crazy thinking of all of you out there in the same boat... yet I feel so very alone here.
Re: BAM!!! vent....
So weird.. The reason why I got on this board today was because I was a little down today.
I too, am trying to get pregnant. Been off birth control for 2 years, did clomid for 4 months and letrozole (sp) 2 months, done 1 IUI and have had a HSG.
I was in good spirits all this month thinking that I am ok with not getting pregnant until the end of summer. But then out of the blue the last couple of days everyone is pregnant. And when I ask how long they have been trying they tell me 1 month! Now, I am excited and happy for them? But it instantly puts me in sad mood?. I am from a small community so we keep a lot of things to our self. So, when they ask when we are going to have a baby? I just say.. Whenever I get pregnant. J
So, after this long post.. Just know I am in the same boat as you! It?s hard. I cry. I pray no period and this is the month.. Then I do it all again the next month... But I tell myself IT will happen. And that's what keeps me going. Good Luck to you!
For me, some days are good, some days are bad. And sometimes it doesn't hurt me to hear about pregnancy and be around babies, and somedays I can't take it. Honestly, I just take it day by day (as corny as that sounds) and I've been trying to focus on other things (buying a house, getting a better job, etc.) while the time passes and we are benched from trying.
I've found that being open with some of our friends and family has really helped me. Also, when I really feel sad, I come on this board and talk to others because it helps lift my spirits. I hope you feel better soon, HUGS
IVF #1 Oct 2013- cancelled
IVF #2 Mar 2014- success.... baby girl born 11/28/14
FET #1 Mar 2016- baby boy due 12/16/16
I had a really hard day yesterday, so naturally today was my first bad "facebook" day. I logged into facebook to right away see an ultrasound posted from a friend's wife. I knew she was pregnant, but seeing the picture really made my heart feel like there were claws digging into it. I blocked her (just for a little while). We aren't close, so I really don't care. Nothing on facebook had ever hurt me like that before. Totally not her fault, but whatever.
It's hard. It's SO hard. Would it be better if we never had to encounter pregnant people ever, anywhere? I don't know. Maybe, but part of me thinks that some of the TTC hope resides in knowing that one day we might be the ones telling our families and posting things on facebook.
I have swings too, good days and bad days. I'm sorry today is a bad one for you. Good luck, hopefully this will be the month!
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Me 32 :: DH 41
TTC since November, 2011
DH's SA : Excellent
Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012
DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD
Treatments: 6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN
3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase"
September - December, 2013: Break to lose weight and get healthy
40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"
February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP
Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!!
1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp
2nd u/s 4/29: hb at 166 bmp. Graduated from RE!!
TEAM PINK!
Baby girl arrived on Thanksgiving day weighing 7lbs 6oz and measuring 20 inches
This is great advice IntuitiveBlue! Easier said than done some days, but so true. Hugs to all of you who need them!
TTC #1 Since 7/2011
Me: 30, PCOS with anovulation
DH: 38, Low Morph & DE
Rx: Metformin 500mg
Cycle #1: Clomid 100mg + Ovidrel = No Response, Canceled
Cycle #2: Clomid 150mg + Ovidrel = No Response, Canceled
Cycle #3: Clomid 150mg + Follistim + Ovidrel = No response, Canceled
Cycle #4: Femara 7.5mg + Gonal-f + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP!!!!
~ EDD 03.26.14 ~
TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!
DX: Unexplained
BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121. US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE. EDD 12/28