I just realized that I'm getting mad every time DS cries for boob. And I've been feeling resentful of him for wanting me so much. Which makes me feel guilty and like I am a horrible mother and human being. And my DDs can't do anything right. And I just want to cry right now. A lot.
Would you say this warrants a call to the doc? Is this what PPD is? I don't even know. I can't remember if I felt this utterly sh!tty and angry and frustrated with the other two, if this is the normal "sleepless night" frustration/blues or if it's more than that. Help?
// I love you too. //
Re: PPD?
I'm so sorry you're frustrated. I would just call your doc and ask. I'm no expert, but don't wait, it doesn't hurt to make a phone call. I can't imagine your level of stress right now, you have a lot on your plate, mama!
I agree with everyone. Sure, it could be baby blues that will pass and it likely will but if you feel concerned than that absolutely justifies a call. I'm sure any doctor would rather you call then risk more frustration.
Thinking about you!
I think everyone has very good advice.
I wanted to add that PPD can show up in different ways for different people. I think I've had it twice. When I had Liam I often cried and picked fights with people. When I had Jack I didn't cry as often but I imagined him falling, or me tripping down the steps with him in my arms, or other terrible things happening to him.
It doesn't hurt to ask for help or to call your doctor. Good luck, mama, creepy internet hugs, things will get better.
::gives NF big squishy hugs::
I have no experience with PPD, but I can only agree with everyone else - it can't hurt to give your dr a call. Hopefully everything goes back to normal on its own soon, but if it doesn't, then at least you will already have taken the first steps to feeling better.
Good luck