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Petunia844 · May 2013

Hi Ladies,

I'm sorry to come post when I do so infrequently, but I'm struggling today. It's our last day in our house and I'm so conflicted. I was a totally different woman when I moved here. So naive. We bought the house, got pregnant right away, set up our nursery.... I'll never forget coming home from the hospital after he was born and being petrified to walk into that door, into his room. So much love, so much sad, I feel like my heart has lived and bled in this house. On the one hand I feel like we're moving forward and bringing Peyton with us, on the other hand I feel like we're leaving him behind. I know it doesn't matter anyways....the house is sold, we're moving tomorrow. I just can't believe it. I will never live in another house with him, this was his only home and we're leaving it.

Bayberry12 · May 2013

Huge hugs to you. This is a big deal, moving is emotional no matter what, but add everything that you have been through on top of it and I'm sure it's even harder.

I think about moving, a lot. I don't want to be in this sad house or neighborhood anymore. Even though I love this house and spent so much time here when I was happy, I sometimes just want something new.

I don't think moving will really change things, I mean things will change, but you will always love your son and he will always be with you. No matter where you live. Hang in there.

Heatherhah · May 2013

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. But you know Peyton is where ever you live. He is your home ,he is your life, he is your son if that makes sense. i don't know how I would feel leaving our house with Sydney/ now Trinity's room.

The nursery held so many feelings for all of us in my house. For DH and DS it meant hard work and a ton of love to me it just means her all the time. I totally understand and I just want to send some hugs to you!!

Good luck with the move!!

Hugs!!

Heather

fluttergirlmoonchild79 · May 2013

I know exactly how you feel. We moved last year. I couldn't stay in that house anymore but didn't want to leave for the exact reasons you stated. I cried so many times as we were moving (between stress, the emotion behind it and thinking our dog had run off). I was so afraid I wouldn't feel my son on our new house but I do. When times get really bad I just remind myself "I've been through the worst, everything else is nothing."

lrichmond86 · May 2013

Big huge hugs! This is so hard, I know. We moved about six months after we lost baby Gary. It was so hard to leave the home he was conceived in and the only home we ever shared with him.

A story that may help with your move... as we pulled out of our old driveway forthe last time a little orange butterfly landed on our old front door and stayed there until after we had driven away. When we arrived at the new house I went out to the back deck and sitting right there in the rail was that little orange butterfly. I'm not saying that it was my son or even that it was the same butterfly, but it made me realize that it didn't matter where we were. He came with us everywhere and always would.

Congratulations on your new home. I know how hard it's going to be, but try to look at it as a new beginning for your family, Peyton included. It's a big next step, but you will develop new memories in this home with both of your boys. Best of luck with the move! I'll keep you I'm my t and p!

kikibelle · May 2013

HUGS

I'll be thinking about you tonight as you spend your last night in your house. Remember that the memories and the love don't live there, they live in your heart and mind and will always be with you.

jbranden12 · May 2013

((Hugs)). My mom has a magnet on her refrigerator that says "home is where your mom is." This is so true. The house was not Peyton's home, YOU are his home and always will be.

alidank · May 2013

Thank you so much ladies. We're in the new place now. I had a good cry when I left and especially when I left the nursery. It's all very surreal. lrichmond, you're story was incredibly helpful, thank you.

Petunia844 · May 2013

Sorry that was weird, apparently I have a super old knot account I accidentally logged into! That last post was me.

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