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too optimistic... or just hopeful

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This is long, but pretty please talk about where you are too... I am longing for relatable people to talk to.

i don't post often, but l am an obsessive lurker... We are in our 18th cycle... Started seeing RE 8 weeks ago, we are on our second month of Clomid and I had a laparoscopic chromosomething/hsg done before ovulation this month... We hit 13,15,17, and 19. They found a microscopic amount of endometriosis and burned it off... So far everything looks good between the ultrasounds and blood work showed I have hyperthyroidism and progesterone is a ratio of 2:1 instead of 3:1. He is monitoring me well... Very well... I am feeling optimistic for the first time in months sitting at day 21 now... Am I going to be crushed in a week?

How are you ladies handling where youare on this adventure? Please chat with me...
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Re: too optimistic... or just hopeful

  • monimu13monimu13 member
    Hi there, sounds like you have a RE that is doing a good initial workup.  Has YH had his SA?  I know that its hard sometimes, but its good to optimistic :). But I can't tell you if you "will be crushed" next week...hopefully that's not the case.  Good luck!
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    Hi there. I am in a similar place as you in my cycle. I am 8 days past IUI and my beta is set for this Friday 5/20. As for how you are feeling, I think it is good to feel hopeful. It means that you haven't given up, and that's a good thing! I have found that If you mentally tell yourself there's no way this will work then it makes the treatments that much harder. Instead I force myself to try to stay positive as much as possible even if it means I'll be really let down at the end of the cycle. Lets face it, we will all be let down and upset regardless so you may as well stay hopeful during the 2ww.

    I wouldn't say I'm feeling super confident about this cycle, but I will say that I want a BFP this time probably more than ever. We are taking a treatment break after this one so I'm desperately praying that this could be it.  Good luck to you!!! And join in and post more! These girls help keep me sane!

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    Hi there. I am in a similar place as you in my cycle. I am 8 days past IUI and my beta is set for this Friday 5/20. As for how you are feeling, I think it is good to feel hopeful. It means that you haven't given up, and that's a good thing! I have found that If you mentally tell yourself there's no way this will work then it makes the treatments that much harder. Instead I force myself to try to stay positive as much as possible even if it means I'll be really let down at the end of the cycle. Lets face it, we will all be let down and upset regardless so you may as well stay hopeful during the 2ww.

    I wouldn't say I'm feeling super confident about this cycle, but I will say that I want a BFP this time probably more than ever. We are taking a treatment break after this one so I'm desperately praying that this could be it.  Good luck to you!!! And join in and post more! These girls help keep me sane!

    I agree with everything Cara said and especially the bolded! DH & I are on our first medicated cycle and it is the first time in a long while where I've actually had some hope. Realistically speaking, I know there's a good chance that it might not work this time, but I'm trying to stay focused on the positive. Good luck to everyone above!!  

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    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
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    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
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    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • EIK2013EIK2013 member
    I agree with what other ladies have already posted...its great to stay optimistic!  It really is the only way to get through this journey and ESPECIALLY the 2WW.  Definitely chime in more on the board!!  These ladies have gotten me through many tough IF days.  Hang in there!
    Me: 27, DH: 29*** TTC since November 2011 *** Dx with PCOS in September 2012 
    ***September 2012: IUI #1 = BFN*** 
     ***October 2012: IUI #2 = cancelled due to not responding to meds ***
     ***February 2013: IUI #3 - BFN ***
     *** April 2013: Gonal-f, HCG Trigger and TI = BFN*** 
     ***May/June 2013: TAKING A BREAK.***
    ***July 2013: Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = BFN***
    ***August 2013: Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = Cancelled due to over-stimulating***
    ***September/October 2013: Fermara, Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Beta #1: 65, Beta #2: 210!!!!!!***




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  • priadeanpriadean member
    Thank you guys so much! Good luck to you all... I hope it happens soon so that.We can all move on to the morning sickness and raging hormones.

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  • babydreams13babydreams13 member
    Seems like you have everything together.  As for me I am crushed each time IUI doesn't work.  I am in the 2WW of IUI #3.  If it doesn't work I will be really sad and also moving on to injectibles (was doing Clomid).  I am having a really tough day with it being Mother's Day.  Going on to FB today made me sad...I saw all of my friends with their babies and I have none.  IDK this whole process sucks.  All we can do is keep on trying.  Hope you get your BFP soon.  
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    IVF #1 began August 2013- BC, 4 days of Estrace, stimmed with Gonal F and Menopur, Ganirelix, 9R 5M 5F, Medrol and Doxycycline, 5 day transfer of 2 early blastocysts- good quality, Progesterone, Estrace, and baby aspirin, BETA on 9/20 BFN,   IVF #2 began September 2013, stimming with Gonal F (higher dose) and Menopur, Ganirelix, 18R 14M 9F with ICSI, 5 day transfer of 2 BBs one was starting to hatch, 2 frosties: 1  BB and 1 AC, BETA on 10/21, BFN BETA was a 5- chemical 
    Getting some more testing and trying to figure out what the issue is before FET in December, started acupuncture on 11/10, RLP and some other BW nothing major to report except slightly high Prolactin. Prolactin was slightly high when I started with my RE and I already had an MRI which was Neg.  Endo biopsy=negative.  WTF is wrong with us???
    12/18/13 FET of 1 BB and 1 AC.  Hoping for a miracle.  Beta 12/26 Low BETA-8 2nd BETA 5- chemical
    After 3 failed transfers IDK where to go from here.  Still no real answers as to why this isn't working.  Getting a second opinion in February and looking into immune testing.  
    2/14- NEW RE- Immune testing showed a partial dq alpha match with DH- On prednisone and did intralipids prior to transfer.  3/14 Lupron, gonal f, menopur, HGH.  ER 15 mature all 15 fertilized!  5dt of an early blast grade 1 and an expanded blast grade 2.  BETA on 4/21.  1 grade 2 embryo frozen
    BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121.  US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE.  EDD 12/28


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