Tough day

Ecarabeo217 · May 2013

Hello ladies! I've been in hiding...mostly lurking and occasionally rearing my head to respond to someone. You are all in my mind and heart, regardless. It's been a rough recovery from my last failed IVF, and I'm still not anywhere close to where I wish I was. I go from angry to hopeless to numb. I was dreading today. Today when I thought I would be announcing my pregnancy to my family as a Mother's Day surprise. Today when I thought I'd be flooded with well wishes and congratulations. Instead, I have spent my morning wishing everyone else a beautiful day and visiting my newlydelivered patients with their brand new bundles of joy. I've already had tiff 1 with the hubs who sometimes is very harsh to respond to my tears. And though I understand it comes from a place of frustration and impotence to fix this, still hurts when I just need him to let me be upset. The proverbial straw was getting a card from someone "to the best cat dog mom in the world" and thinking I may never get the chance to be a "real" mom.
So my apologies to you all for coming out of hiding just to be a DebbieDowner but I knew you would be the only ones to understand. I wish all of you strength in abundance to get through today.

megs3084 · May 2013

((hugs)) I understand the feelings. I'm a NICU nurse and have been dreading this weekend since I had to work and seem to lately be getting families that dont visit or seem to appreciate their miracle. It's so difficult sometimes. You just want to grab them & scream wtf is wrong with you! The final straw yesterday was when the charge nurse came around and said our manager said it was okay for staff's families to come visit today for our lunch breaks. Everyone's kids get to come up, so that means I'd probably have to eat in the small kitchen instead of with everyone else so I can avoid that. Thankfully, I got cancelled from the first 8 hours of my shift today so I don't have to deal with that. phew!

lincoln79 · May 2013

Ecarabeo217:
Hello ladies! I've been in hiding...mostly lurking and occasionally rearing my head to respond to someone. You are all in my mind and heart, regardless. It's been a rough recovery from my last failed IVF, and I'm still not anywhere close to where I wish I was. I go from angry to hopeless to numb. I was dreading today. Today when I thought I would be announcing my pregnancy to my family as a Mother's Day surprise. Today when I thought I'd be flooded with well wishes and congratulations. Instead, I have spent my morning wishing everyone else a beautiful day and visiting my newlydelivered patients with their brand new bundles of joy. I've already had tiff 1 with the hubs who sometimes is very harsh to respond to my tears. And though I understand it comes from a place of frustration and impotence to fix this, still hurts when I just need him to let me be upset. The proverbial straw was getting a card from someone "to the best cat dog mom in the world" and thinking I may never get the chance to be a "real" mom. So my apologies to you all for coming out of hiding just to be a DebbieDowner but I knew you would be the only ones to understand. I wish all of you strength in abundance to get through today.

big hugs. it is a terrible day/weekend for all of us on the board. i am sorry yh isn't getting it right now. huge hugs

Mrs.McIrish · May 2013

Hugs..tough day is right. I "should" be 18wks right now but I'm not and this is the first Mother's Day that I "know" that I will never be a mom. I'd actually welcome an acknowledgment from DH with a card from the cats!!. But he is at his moms and I'm home alone.. In bed which I am not getting out of today..

firesiren · May 2013

Oh, I'm so sorry. Your anguish breaks my heart. I wish there was something I could do for you. Today does suck. I think we are all a little Debbie downer today. I'm sending huge ((HUGS))

liz4paws · May 2013

Giant hugs..

No worries about feeling like you're "debbie downer"...

I admire you so much for keeping a happy face as you wish your patients joyful times. You are an incredibly strong woman, hugs.... I pray that next year you are the one receiving the wishes for your new little one.

BeeBee08 · May 2013

Big huge ((hugs))!! This day is absolutely brutal. I hope it is over for you quickly. Hang in there.

zazu13 · May 2013

Sorry for everyone having a rough day. A year ago I was waiting for beta level to get to zero after beta hell and methotrexate. I made hubby take me away so we are sitting at an airport and I'm blissfully ignoring the holiday except for, of course, acknowledging my iwn mama. Hugs to everyone. Hopefully the pain of Mother's Day will lessen over the years.

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