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My decent day has gone rogue!

A friend from college just announced that she is pregnant. For some reason, coming from her, it feels worse than anyone else I've had announce in the past.

It could be because I have my first RE appointment Friday, or could be because she always said she never wanted kids. Could be both. All I know is that my heart hurts and I'm fighting the urge to cry at work. The only people I've got to vent to are my sister who doesn't understand and a friend who is literally about to pop at any second with her second baby.

Needless to say venting to them hasn't helped much. I'm just sad.
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  • WE are your people to vent to!!! We are always here to listen. I'm sorry! That is tough news to take in especially when they have always said they didn't want children. That part always sting worse for me too.

    Good luck Friday!!!!

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  • Thanks ladies!

    I'm usually SO good at just getting over it and being excited for whoever it is. I AM always excited for them, I'm just sad for me...and sad for DH.

    Yesterday this stupid commercial came on for a Chevy truck. A really big one that's a dually. DH says "that's what I want!!" Then he looks at me and says, "and this too..." And the guy in the commercial pulls his sleeping baby from the back seat. Melt my freaking heart DH. Melt it to pieces. He's so sweet sometimes.
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  • I'm so sorry! Sometimes, those unexpected announcements are the worst!! I had to hide a girl I went to high school with, because she and her husband of less than a year announced they were pg, and she had the easiest pregnancy ever! I couldn't handle it!!!

    Red wine seeps to help on days like that! :) 

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    Beta #1-BFP!!! HCG-55 Beta #2--111 Beta #3--2,825 Beta #4 22,031 1st U/S 7-29-13 Saw and heard our little sweet pea's heartbeat!! 109 bpm 


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    ::hugs:: to you! I'm sorry you're having a rough day
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    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • Thanks everyone!! I did go ugly cry in the bathroom. Seems I can keep it together until I start texting DH about it. Then the years just start to flow. I'm feeling somewhat better.

    I know her getting KU has nothing to do with me not getting KU. I'm SO glad I've got this board FULL of all of you amazing ladies who actually really understand.

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  • I'm sorry to hear that. I know it can feel like a gut punch to hear someone else get something that you so badly want. Lately, those "Huggies/New Mom" TV ads have been bringing on the sad for me.I wish I could express the words to provide some sort of comfort to you. :::hugs:::
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  • I am so sorry!! (((HUGS!!))) those unexpected announcements can really be the most hurtful.
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  • You have every right to feel this way.  Just find one thing that will make your day special today......a walk with your spouse tonight, a trip to get ice-cream or a shopping trip, or a trip to the movies.  You need to do something after work so YOU take care of YOU.  =)  It is hard to hear such news, but keep focused on the goal!  You are on your way by seeing the RE on Friday!

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    RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF 

    IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN

      Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th!  Egg Retrieval 9/20/13.  19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI

     3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5  Beta #2 on 10/6/13 =  negative

      IVF#2 - Lupron plan  (set to begin on 10/28/13)  (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)

     Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months

    CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron.  (Got my calendar today!  IVF#2 is a go!)

    ER = 1/14/14  (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized.  Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized.  At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing.  Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)

    ET = 1/19/14  (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred!   (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze.  =(  )

    Beta #1 = 1/28/14   (2 weeks after ER)  BFP! 209 (9dp5dt)   EDD 10/7/14

    Beta #2 - 1/30/14  (11 dp5dt) 302

    Beta #3 - 2/3/14  (15 dp5dt)  1222 

    Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS!        Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm

    Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.

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  • EIK2013EIK2013 member
    I'm sorry you had a rough IF day :( sometimes it is the more random announcements that hurt more than people closer to you getting pregnant. Hang in there and lots of hugs for you!
    Me: 27, DH: 29*** TTC since November 2011 *** Dx with PCOS in September 2012 
    ***September 2012: IUI #1 = BFN*** 
     ***October 2012: IUI #2 = cancelled due to not responding to meds ***
     ***February 2013: IUI #3 - BFN ***
     *** April 2013: Gonal-f, HCG Trigger and TI = BFN*** 
     ***May/June 2013: TAKING A BREAK.***
    ***July 2013: Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = BFN***
    ***August 2013: Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = Cancelled due to over-stimulating***
    ***September/October 2013: Fermara, Gonal-f, Trigger and TI = BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Beta #1: 65, Beta #2: 210!!!!!!***




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  • AkieshaAkiesha member
    So sorry you are having a rough IF day. ((hugs)) Hope tomorrow is brighter.
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    BFP#1- 1/21/13 CP 1/24/13
    Cycle 18,19 & 20 50mg Clomid+trigger+IUI= All BFFN
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