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• firesiren member

  May 2013

  Lacyj67:

  I'm comming out of hiding for you!!! I got so upset seeing your last post and my heart breaks for you! I'm so sorry you are dealing with this!!!! I know I ask why a lot but really ... Wtf... WHY!!! Pm me if you need to chat. Maybe we can exchange emails or something!!

  Ahhhh!!!!  You just made me cry.   You are so sweet.  "why" is what I've been asking. I just don't get it.  It really helps to know I'm not alone.  Thanks for checking on me

   DH and I just talked and we are going to see an RE in Chicago with better success rates and consider DIUI. No sense in doing IVF again.    Though DH is serious about adoption, something I won't even consider right now.  But I have learned that things change the more desperate I get.

  How are you doing?  

   36 DH 33 TTC for over 3 years
  First mini-IVF Sept 2011... Only 1 egg! ... BFN
  Switching RE
  IVF#2 May 2012 9 eggs and only 2 sperm, WTH!
  BFN

  IVF #3 March 2013~Tesa with back-up Donor Sperm,Tesa, unsuccessful used DS~ Chemical   

  Switching RE's within practice

  2 frosties waiting for us, November 2013!!!!!   Transferred 2 "average" blasts 11/20/2013

  BFP!!!!!!!  Boy/Girl Twins!!!!!! Due 08/08/2014

  
  

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• Lacyj67 member

  May 2013

  Doing ok. I think truthfully I'm sitting in a big tub of denial. I don't know where to go from here and feel scared and lost and hopeless. But I know that I am strong and when the heartache dulls a bit I will snap out if this funk and get back in gear and do what I need to do to research and plan what my next attack will be. We do have a WTF and donor or embryo adoption talk scheduled with our current RE. It's set for tue may 28th. I just feel like I've lost all hope in him and don't trust this dr anymore. So I'm going to see what he has to say and go from there. But like you I'm ready to move on to someone else. I know there are so many women on this IFV board who can give us so much advice and I will be asking a lot of questions when I'm ready.
  Last night I looked up donor embryo adoption in CA and put our names on a list. Who knows what that will do but can't hurt.
  You sound like you have a plan in place for everything and if your not ready to talk about adoption than do what is right and wait a little bit . Explore other options. I truly believe we will know when we are ready for the next step in this whole process.
  So I'm reading a book right now called Instant Mom by Nia Vardalos. It's really good. I had dreams of adoption all last night! You should get it and read it. It's making me rethink adoption completely but in a good way!!
  Well hopefully soon we will have updates and they will be good news for a change!!!talk soon! Hugs!

  Me 34 and DH 39 married in aug. 2002

  Did 5 round of clomid 2010 =BFN

   High levels of NK CELLS DX sept.2012 DOR:# 0.02 

  IVF #1 May 2012  ER 4, EF 2, ET 2 =BFN

  MINI IVF Oct.2012  Cancelled 10-27-12

  Ivf #3 Antagonist Protocol April 2013

  Shared cycle..Donor cycled in July Got 12 eggs 9 fertilized and 8 frozen!!

  DE FET #1 Sept. 3rd 2013 FIRST BFP EVER 5dp5dt

  miscarried Sept 24th at 5 weeks 5 days

  Etopic  D&C and hysterscopy Nov 5 2013

  dx with pre genetic blood clotting dec 2013

  FET #2 Jan 31st  2014 

  Miscarried for a second time again at 5 weeks 5 days

  Currently fostering to adopt an amazing little 1 year old boy..P.J!

  FET#3  is Oct 29th 2014

  BFN on fet #3

  Last and FINAL FET coming JAN 28th 2015

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