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Parenting after a Loss
krwact
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A late, early intro
krwact
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Hi all,
I've been meaning to intro over here for about the last 3 weeks but one thing or another always got in the way.
I'm Kim, a heretofore regular PgAL poster. After dealing with IF due to hypothyroid, I found out about my first pregnancy almost exactly one year ago and miscarried on Mother's Day. I was scared and thrilled to find out I was pregnant again in early September and found PgAL to be an absolute sanity-saver all throughout my pregnancy. This pregnancy ended much earlier than expected when I delivered my son Malcolm prematurely on April 8 at 34 weeks, 4 days. We spent 9 days in the NICU (I was incredibly lucky to be able to stay with him) and have now been home for 2 weeks. We've been dealing with some fairly typical preemie challenges. What's surprised me is the force of emotions I've experienced. So much of my emotional reality in dealing with a cut-short pregnancy and his preemie status has reminded me of dealing with IF and loss. I've wondered if there are any other PAL moms of preemies who can relate.
I've been loving having him at home but we're under quarantine and house arrest per his pediatrician and I can't wait to get outside again.
I'm looking forward to continuing with some of the amazing relationships I started on PgAL and in meeting the rest of you.
Oh, and what would a proper intro be without pics?
Here are two of my favorite pictures of my little guy:
Kim
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Re: A late, early intro
I'm really sorry about the preemie challenges and fears you have faced. I can't even imagine. I'm sure there are women on this board who can relate to you.
First, your LO is adorable! Congrats!
My twins were born at 34.4 also, and I completely get where you are coming from. We did 13 and 15 days in the NICU, and the emotions surrounding the girls premature arrival, and the uncertainty surrounding their stay were a LOT to handle. Your emotions will run the gamut. One day I was elated with their arrival, and then furious and ashamed of my "faulty" uterus. Then I would weep with regret that I would never get those first moments back. After 5 months, I am starting to find a better place, and it IS getting easier.
Be gentle with yourself Momma, and take the time that you need to heal!
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BFP#1 3/8/12; diagnosed w/ Anencephaly at 12w6d; D&C 5/9/12
BFP#2 7/18/12; A/S 10/26/12 It's a Girl! EDD 3/29/13
Phoebe Jordan Born 3/20/13
BFP #1 6.19.11 ~ EDD 2.23.12 ~ CP on 6.22.11
BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
BFP #4 4.12.12 ~ EDD 12.25.12~ Born on 12.26.12
BFP#1 10 wk missed mc
BFP#2 DS born at 40+2 on 8/14/12 BFP#3 DD Born at 39+3 on 5/13/14
Thanks for the warm welcome everyone!
SoulChicken, I'm sorry to hear that you can relate but I'm grateful that you shared your experience. I had so much guilt over his premature birth (even though my head knows I didn't cause it) and it was a surprise to me to read how common that is.
Dilngr, I've been thinking about you too. I have been doing better overall but still have those moments of regret/jealousy, especially on our BMB and IRL when I go to the LC and see all these full term mommas and babies. I think it'll be very healing once we're allowed to participate in the outside world again. Even with cable and the internet, it's so isolating to be stuck inside, just the two of us, for the vast majority of the day.
Thanks again all. I know I'm gonna like it here! :-)