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Grrrr...hurry up, AF! And a little venting...

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Well, after the BFN Beta a few days ago, I'm pretty sure I've moved on from being devastated, to just being kind of angry/frustrated about the whole thing. And my RE wants to wait until I've had a "full flow" period before he starts me on another round of Clomid. Umm...yeah, I haven't had a "full flow" period in quite some time and have been pretty irregular, so who knows when AF will decide to show up. So, now the waiting game just for AF...Confused

Aside from all this, my DH and I went to one of our good friends' birthday dinners last night (who is PG with her second child). She started asking me about my recent Beta, which I was trying to talk quietly to her about (Um, hello?! I don't exactly want the other five people at the table hearing about my IF), and one of the gals at the table chimes in with "Oh my gosh, I can breathe too heavily in a room of men and will end up pregnant...and I'm sooo not a kid person." She also has two children. And she goes on with how I can "borrow hers," and blah blah blah. GRRRRRAngry...I am so tired of people and their insensitivity! And if one more person tells me to "just relax, it will happen," I may scream. Sorry for the anger burst...I'm just so emotionally and mentally drained and I don't have anyone to talk to IRL about all this, because none of them understands...Crying

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    EIK2013EIK2013 member
    I'm sorry your having a rough IF day.....I know things people say canbe so hurtful, but I try to just remember that most people are ignorant when it comes to IF and they don't understand what it is all about and a lot of the time they don't know what to say....it can be very frustrating for sure. I have found that the more I get angry at these comments the more painful the whole journey is. So, I try to take these comments with a grain of salt and try to remember that some people are just ignorant about the whole IF topic....I know this can be hard to do on very tough IF days. Hang in there!!! (((hugs)))
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    BabyDustWishBabyDustWish member
    This post reminds me of the post I wrote yesterday after a BFN. I went straight to frustration too.. Sending you my Aunt Flo vibes so you can begin your next journey. Hang in there and Good Luck!
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    Twinkie0612Twinkie0612 member

    BFN suck.  If you ovulated (and I am assuming you did since your RE ordered betas) and you stopped your progesterone, you should get your period soon. 

    As far as insensitive people, I have decided that I will no longer be nice to anyone who says something stupid to me.  If you say something insensitive or stupid, expect to be called out on being an ignorant twat.

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    Sorry about the rough day... I hope AF shows up sooner rather than later so you can get a move on it.
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    imageEIK2013:
    I'm sorry your having a rough IF day.....I know things people say canbe so hurtful, but I try to just remember that most people are ignorant when it comes to IF and they don't understand what it is all about and a lot of the time they don't know what to say....it can be very frustrating for sure. I have found that the more I get angry at these comments the more painful the whole journey is. So, I try to take these comments with a grain of salt and try to remember that some people are just ignorant about the whole IF topic....I know this can be hard to do on very tough IF days. Hang in there!!! (((hugs)))

     I definitely need to try to find my happy place on days like this. My day is getting better, and I've really been trying to think positively about our next cycle (maybe third time's a charm?). Thank you for the kind words Smile

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    imageTwinkie0612:

    BFN suck.  If you ovulated (and I am assuming you did since your RE ordered betas) and you stopped your progesterone, you should get your period soon. 

    As far as insensitive people, I have decided that I will no longer be nice to anyone who says something stupid to me.  If you say something insensitive or stupid, expect to be called out on being an ignorant twat.

     

    I'm hoping AF will show up soon (This was my first time with the Progesterone suppositories, so I wasn't sure if it would take long after I stopped taking them).

    I was just kind of hurt that my friend brought up my issues while we were all out eating dinner (and with a bunch of people I don't know very well, who don't know anything about me and my situation), and then she said "Oh, and not to make you feel worse, but guess who else is pregnant?" So, I was expecting a little more tact from her considering she knows everything my DH and I are, and have been going through. Hurts worse when these kind of comments come from friends or family.

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    imageBabyDustWish:
    This post reminds me of the post I wrote yesterday after a BFN. I went straight to frustration too.. Sending you my Aunt Flo vibes so you can begin your next journey. Hang in there and Good Luck!

    Aw, thanks for the AF vibes! I need them Smile Wishing you lots of luck with your journey as well!

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    I am so sorry you are having a hard time!! (((HUGES!!))). People can really say the most insensitive things sometimes. Most of the time they don't realize how insensitive it really is, but it hurts so bad.
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    imageRunCC37:
    Sorry about the rough day... I hope AF shows up sooner rather than later so you can get a move on it.

    Thank you Smile I hope you're having a good day.

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