This has been stuck in my head for as long as I can remember.
I still, after 8 months feel like my bond with J isn't very strong. I love him so much, but I feel like he thinks I'm a stranger.
He doesn't reach out for me like he does my SO. Most of the time when I'm on the floor playing with him, it's like I'm not even there. I guess with most parents, it's the opposite. Most of the time I read on here that your babies prefer you guys over your Hs.
I just don't know how to desk better about this. Thanks for letting me vent.
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Even when I was only working 2 days a week, and spending all day with him, I just felt inadequate. Maybe my PPA made me so disconnected that J could feel it, too. I don't even know if that's possible.
Just when I think my child doesn't love me like I love him....
He wouldn't fall back to sleep after we took him out of his carseat. I fed him a bottle, still awake. I go to give him a hug and kiss goodnight, and he snuggles right into my neck. Goes right to sleep holding onto me. I burst into tears.
Love is powerful ladies.
Aww! He loves his mommy! I'm sure the PPA has played a part in the way you feel.....you are a strong mama and I hope you find more moments like that one to help you through it!
You're his mother. You brought him into this world. You gave him life.
He will always, always, always love you. He will always know you. He lived inside of you and part of him will always be there.
SCANDAL!
Don't beat yourself up about it.
I love what bbj said but.....hahaha all I could hear was my mom saying "I brought you into this world I can take you RIGHT BACK OUT!" HAHA yeah nice threat MOM.