just having a down day and wanted to vent quietly. while i am happy jack is in the level 2 nursery instead of level 3, it does mean that i see babies come in for just a few hours each day and get to go with their moms and leave the next day...or watch other babies take full bottles or breastfeed well. meanwhile, jack is growing well and i am grateful, but i am SO ready for him to move to the next step...you know, eating or something. and i am tired of friends and family saying "just give him time" or "well, he wasn't supposed to be here until january 26". dammit, i know that! but he is, and i am sick of waiting and tired of being the long-term special care preemie.
sigh. what's worse is my milk supply seems to be down a couple ounces the past couple days and i don't know if that is something to worry about, so i am stressed, which i KNOW won't help it.
ACK. if it would stop raining at least outside would look cheerful. as it is, it's bleak outside and i feel sad inside.
if you read all this, thanks. i had myself a good cry and i think now i will have some wine and relax with some trashy tv for a little while.
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Trashy TV always does the trick for me! I know the feeling, we were in the limbo waiting period for a while, and it seemed like everyone was going in fast motion all around us, and my babies were just staying in the same place, not progressing, not getting worse, just the same for about a week. Then things started moving in the right direction again.
Stress has a lot to do with the amount of milk you supply. The more you relax, the better your supply will build. Take it easy and go turn on some reality crap for a while! Chin up
Enjoy your trashy TV. It's tough to have these icky moments. Hang in there!
I'm sorry, unfortunately, I know exactly what you mean! Just for positive reinforcement of sorts, when they do catch onto feeding, it is amazing what they will do! My son just got the feeding tube out on Sunday, and is home today...what an accomplishment.
I am so sorry you are having a down day....please feel free to email me, misskris813 at yahoo dot com.
Hope your night gets better with some trashy tv! *HUGS*
Hang in there. I remember feeling the same way. I used to think, hey, it is not fair, that baby was born 3 days after mine and he gets to go home first and blah blah...It all seems so far in the past at this point. Get as prepared as possible because once he starts eating he should be coming home really quick.(as long as that is the only hold up at this point)
What used to get me down in the dumps is all my friends and family asking when he is coming home....that drove me nuts since I didn't know the answer. I know they were just concearned and didn't mean anything by it but damn....that got under my skin.
You are probably tired of hearing this but get as much rest as you can right now. Once Jack gets home things will be way more different than you could ever imagine.