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ratsuda726 · April 2013

It was a month yesterday that I lost Gioia. It was a pretty sad day, but I felt I handled it ok. I did have a little breakdown last night. I cried because I missed my baby, I cried bc I'm afraid I won't be able to have a baby, as this was my 2nd loss in a year. I was so happy when pregnant, and now that she's gone, I just have so much sadness, I don't know if I'll ever be as happy again. I wish the next 2 weeks go by fast as that's my follow up with dr. & hopefully she'll have answers for us.. MH was wonderful last night and comforted me. Then this morning, I find out a family friend had their baby last night. I have this weird emotion, that I can't explain. I'm so happy for them as they experienced a late loss 7 years ago, and decided to adopt 2children and were surprised with this baby. We were due a month apart this pregnancy. She wanted to be surprised of gender, I kind of was hoping it'd be a boy bc I thought seeing her raise a girl that would be the same age Gioia would be hard. Well, she had a beautiful little girl...Like I said, it's a weird feeling, bc I'm so happy for their rainbow baby, but my heart aches wishing that could be me with my little girl.

lrichmond86 · April 2013

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I'm so sorry that this milestone was tough for you. One month is really hard and then to couple that with the birth of your friends daughter must seem just unbearable. I think that your conflicting feelings about their

shandorfml2 · April 2013

I completely understand your feelings. I had a bunch of friends have babies in March/April (we lost Ana on March 2nd) and I'm glad they are all safe...but now I'm mad. I want my little girl. Lots of hugs for you

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