It's still hard some days

Heatherhah · April 2013

I have a friend of a friend who just delivered her 3rd baby boy yesterday he weighed 10lbs and was a week late. Her kids are 5, 19 months and the new baby. My kids are 5 , Sydney have been 19 months and of course my rainbow who is 5 months this month.

I'm pretty sure she doesn't realize as many others don't that she is a constant reminder of my lost baby girl. She has kids that are very close in age to mine. We were both pregnant 2 years ago together and just this fall together. Her beautiful boys are here and I am missing my baby girl. I should have 3 girls like she has 3 boys. Plus her new baby was born weighing 10lbs. Sydney weighed 10lbs 3 oz and died. All things that hurt me when looking at her. She is truly blessed and she probably doesn't even understand it like I do.

Sorry to ramble I try to be strong but sometimes things like this hit me so much more than it should. I know you all will get it!!

Thanks,

Heather

fluttergirlmoonchild79 · April 2013

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I totally get what you mean. We have this couple we met when doing our baby classes. They're super nice people and we became quick friends. Their son ended up being born 2 days after

Heatherhah · April 2013

I agree flutter!! I mean this girl knows of my loss and is a friend on FB so she knows but it isn't her fault she was lucky enough to have 3 healthy boys!! Some people just don't know about loss like we do and I am happy they don't but it sure doesn't

lolee465 · April 2013

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I know exactly how you feel. Our nephew was born the day before Jillian. We still haven't been able to meet him. We're such a close family, but luckily they understand comp

fluttergirlmoonchild79 · April 2013

Heatherhah:
I agree flutter!! I mean this girl knows of my loss and is a friend on FB so she knows but it isn't her fault she

Heatherhah · April 2013

fluttergirlmoonchild79:
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kdy85 · April 2013

Your not rambling... we understand you here ((hugs)) I'm sorry for your loss of Sydney and all of the constant reminders of "what should of been" One of my good friends and co workers was about 4 weeks behind me when I lost Sophia at 31 1/2 weeks an

shandorfml2 · April 2013

I totally get it. I had two friends due when my girl was due, knew of 2 others in my circle who just had babies. It sucks they all have their babies and I don't have mine. It's hard. I was worried at first and happy they were all delivered safely. Now I'm

Noethola · April 2013

I completely agree, the reminders are so hard. I had three close friends (Im talking my best friends through life) all due in Jan when we were. We were so crazy happy to all be having our little ones together. Three girls and a boy. We were looking forwar