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Anyone want to join my pity party today? Come on in!

smiling76smiling76 member
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I just really need to vent honestly.   So figured I'd invite everyone here to vent with me.  I know have many friends in real life that go through what I do--or what WE do as moms on this board.  So I know you "get" it.....

So I just can't seem to hold my stuff together lately.  I've been in tears for two days.  By last night my eyes were so swollen that I looked hideous.  I'm not sure why I'm so emotional--perhaps stress of work, home, the things going on the world right now that are hitting home, the tremendous lack of sleep I've gotten over the last 5+ days and dealing with the health ramifications that it causes my fibromyalgia, being a single mom now that my husband is working insane hours (we see each other about 10 min a day), dealing with one very special needs and one with sensory, trying to figure out WHEN I can fit therapy and other doctor appointments in to the mix, running the house, etc.

I'm so stressed out right now that besides the crying, my eye won't stop twitching!  And I have such a racing heart right now that I can't even sleep from that.  Plus of course my almost 2 yr old is waking up SEVERAL times a night.  I see a pedi on Friday to talk about his ears and even melotonin. 

I'm SO worried about the future of my DS1--- he has such severe speech apraxia and major sensory issues.  They are wanting developmental kindergarten for him next year and I know how crushed he's going to be.  It's NOT the same as "traditional" and he knows it.  And I'm such a planner on top of it--but won't get his schedule for bus/school until about a week before school starts.  So that's got me.   He won't  be taking the "big" bus like his friends--and the one thing that he is constantly trying to tell me about.  I think he's starting to see himself as a bit different and I'm trying so hard to work with him on that.  I'm so rushed in the morning and after work and the evening that I feel like I'm not spending as much quality time as him--which brings me to tears yet again.

How much I would LOVE a life of just trying to get him to sports instead of everywhere else and feeling bad that he hasn't been able to join the sports he wants (we tried---didn't work out very well at all). I'm not saying the life of a mom with "typical" kids is any easier--but I'd love to try it for a day.   

 


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  • twinkjktwinkjk
    I can relate to EVERYTHING you are saying.  I so often feel like I have NO time!  My house is a mess and no time to clean has me even more stressed.  But LO is happy and healthy--that's all that matters.  It will get better!
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    imagetwinkjk:
    I can relate to EVERYTHING you are saying.  I so often feel like I have NO time!  My house is a mess and no

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  • Shayna0182Shayna0182 member

    I can completely understand and relate to what you're saying. Just last night dh and I got into it, and I told him I thought we needed counseling ( for marriage and family) because so much stuff has piled on with ds and his asd issues, I feel like

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  • KelliO924KelliO924
    Breathe, have a good cry, and breathe some more!  Do you have a way to get out and just do something for you?  You need a break sometimes, and that is ok.  Yoga type classes have helped me so much when I'm stressed...a good massage, pedicur
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