AW: Can I have hugs?

jenkellen · April 2013

I finally told my Mom about my loss on Friday. I had been keeping it a secret. We were going to announce on xmas, but I ended up having a d&c a few days before. My dad died 5 years ago, and this was the first xmas she was actually enjoying herself and I just couldn't bare ruining it.

Well this cycle I was convinced I was pregnant, I wanted it so bad so we could announce on the date of his death which is also 2 days away from my mom's bday.

Work has been very stressful lately, 80+ hrs a week and a lot of comments from coworkers thinking I don't like kids because I don't have any. I think the comments sent me over the edge getting them on cd1

Anyway, lots of crying this weekend, the first flip out since my loss. I thought I'd feel better getting it off my chest, but for some reason I feel worse. Like I completely failed my mom. Ug.

Requesting some hugs, but also sending hugs. I am so glad I have such a wonderful group of women by my side.

alleycat39 · April 2013

Sending you many hugs

buggirl72 · April 2013

((((hugs))))

Adam2010 · April 2013

big hugs!

Junebug060609 · April 2013

Hugs. CD1s suck, but it is so much worse when you think there is a legit shot AND there is a lot riding on it for timing of stuff.

Mrsbtobe2012 · April 2013

I have at LEAST 10 hugs for you. You are going through so much right now, and you certainly don't deserve them.

Please don't feel like a failure, you did nothing to cause a loss. Remember that. And as far as your coworkers saying snarky th

LunaBug924 · April 2013

(((Hugs)))

LydsieMarie7 · April 2013

So sorry for your bad day! ((HUGS)) We're all here rooting for you!

gscoville · April 2013

((Big hugs))

jenkellen · April 2013

Thanks so much ladies! Your hugs feel so nice

skategirl128 · April 2013

Big hugs!

amberpro · April 2013

Lots of (((hugs)))

JE2249 · April 2013

So many [[[HUGS]]] to you!

KMW08 · April 2013

(((jenkellen)))

I'm sorry there's so much going on right now. I hate calendar dates for reasons like yours. There's always some sort of connection correlating to a memory and many times it's not a great one (or at least in my case). And it really

anitaflora · April 2013

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I feel so sad reading your post and am sending you tons of hugs and lots of love!

kiki1978 · April 2013

Lots of hugs headed your way! ((hugs))

samjen2010 · April 2013

Jen I am so sorry for all the emotions you are going through. Huge hugs to you love.

MamaWombat · April 2013

Many, many hugs to you.

heather52904 · April 2013

[[HUGS]]

JordyInIndy · April 2013

Huge :::mobile hugs:::!!!

Tink1704 · April 2013

(((HUGS)))

doglover31 · April 2013

Sending you many hugs!

krirecke · April 2013

So so many ((HUGS))! It is a very tough thing to let it out and I am so sorry you are struggling with it. When I told my mom, I couldn't even say the actual words. I was just very upset so she figured it out. More ((HUGS))!

LLPtobe · April 2013

Sending you so many (((hugs))) honey. I'm sorry you don't feel any better after opening up to your mom. Was she not supportive about it?

km_md · April 2013

Everything you are feeling is normal, but it really sucks. I'm so sorry that things are rough right now ((hugs)). Opening up about your loss is a big step, I hope that it will eventually bring you some peace.