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So frustrated (super long vent)

Mrs.E.07Mrs.E.07
in TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

I just need to get this out, and I know you ladies will understand. This is really long, sorry.

Obviously, the main issue is that we've been TTC for over a year and a half with no success, and with 2 losses and a subseptate uterus I feel like I'll never get my take-home baby.

But right now there is all this other sh!t that is making me so frustrated. 

First of all, I live in a country that basically has universal healthcare and I consider myself extremely lucky. I've gotten excellent care, and the doctors and nurses are great. BUT...the service? Nonexistent. I was treated with Cytotec on 3/25. I was supposed to get a beta drawn one week later, but due to the Easter holiday I had to get it done 9 days later. But the doctor (who is not my regular dr, my regular dr is on vacation for 3 weeks. HOW DARE SHE!!) couldn't call me until Friday because she was off until then. Super annoying, but fine. BUT...she didn't call me on Friday!! So I don't know what my beta was. And I tried to call the clinic (which, when you call them, it's an automated service where you punch in your phone number and they call you back later. Which is annoying in itself) at 2:25 when they were supposed to be open until 3, and they had already closed the phones!

So now I have to call them again tomorrow. Get called back by the nurse. Explain to them that I didn't hear back on Friday, and that I probably won't be able to take the doctor's call because I'm going to be in surgery all day and can't exactly answer my phone when I'm scrubbed into a surgery.

I was also supposed to get an appointment for a follow-up a month after my loss. Usually they send a letter with an appointment time which you can then change only by calling them (and getting called back). I haven't gotten a letter. I'll ask the nurse about this tomorrow, but if I can't get my appointment on time, everything is going to be delayed. This appointment is really important because we're going to discuss a hysteroscopy/removal of my subseptum, an SA, and other tests. If I don't get that at the 4 week mark, it could mean postponing TTC even longer than we will already have to.

I'm still not cleared for exercise or sex. My temps are still up which means it'll probably be a while until my betas are 0. Last time it took 3 months to get to 0 and I just can't do that again. I just can't. I need things to go more smoothly this time. Losing a second baby is hard enough, but to deal with all this is just too much.

I completely broke down last night. I don't know how I'm going to make it through all this.  And even if I do, will I ever even get my take-home baby?

If you read all that, thanks for listening. Here are some brownies with chocolate chip cookies in them:

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TTC #1 since Sept 2011
BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
BFP#2 2/27/13. Empty sac confirmed 3/20/13. Mifepristone + cytotec.
Currently TTA until Fall 2013, waiting for operative hysteroscopy
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Re: So frustrated (super long vent)

  • BootsOrHeartsBootsOrHearts member

    I'm so sorry, that does sound extremely frustrating. Do you have email access to your doctor or anything?

    And OMG those brownies look good.

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  • km_mdkm_md member
    Big (((hugs))) MrsE. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with all of this on top of a loss. The phone call policy at your office sounds horrendous, and I hate when they say they will call back and don't. I hope that you can get some answers soon.


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  • VikingQueenVikingQueen member
    Huge hugs
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  • Mrs.E.07Mrs.E.07
    Thanks guys. Unfortunately there is no other way of contacting them. It's a small price to pay for everyone having access to excellent healthcare that is basically free, but...it just really sucks right now.

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    BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
    BFP#2 2/27/13. Empty sac confirmed 3/20/13. Mifepristone + cytotec.
    Currently TTA until Fall 2013, waiting for operative hysteroscopy
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  • EKGibsEKGibs member
    Big hugs
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    Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
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    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

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  • Roxycc55Roxycc55 member
    Big hugs. That is so frustrating and unfair to deal with on top of your loss.


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  • KGS2003KGS2003 member
    Big (((Hugs))) you are right to be frustrated and upset.  I hope they are able to answer your questions tomorrow. 
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  • sammer818sammer818 member
    *HUGS* sweetie. It's bad enough to go through all of this, but when all of this un-needed frustration is heaped on top, it just makes everything worse.

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    BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
    BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
    Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
    BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
    Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
    BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
    BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
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  • LLPtobeLLPtobe member
    I'm so sorry hon Sad I'm sending lots of T&Ps that things start turning around and going more smoothly for you in regards to appointments. (((hugs)))

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  • Mrs.E.07Mrs.E.07

    Update: my beta was 1120 last weds (down from 38,000) so that's good. Since I haven't bled since Thursday she cleared me for exercise and sex. But then when I got home and DH and I had sex, I started spotting. :(:(:( Don't know what that means. Hopef

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    BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
    BFP#2 2/27/13. Empty sac confirmed 3/20/13. Mifepristone + cytotec.
    Currently TTA until Fall 2013, waiting for operative hysteroscopy
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  • poohbear033poohbear033 member
    I am so sorry you are going through all of this. Huge Hugs!!!
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