Becoming a mother has made me bipolar.

apastinack · March 2013

So Paxton is 6 weeks old tomorrow... I though by this point BF would have eased up. Well, It hasn't! This kid has not become more efficient at all!! It takes 45 min to an hour for him to nurse. Here is my night, every night since coming home from the hospital. Nurse every three hours (unless some cruel joke is being played on me by the universe and he is having a growth spurt). I put him on the breast he nurses well for 10 minutes, I try to wake him and nothing so I take him off, he wakes up immediately and cries, I put him back on the breast and get 5 more min. of nursing, and then the cycle starts all over again... FOR BOTH BREAST... because if I only offer one he what? Cries! By the time he has nursed until his little tummy is full I have to get up again in an hour and half or 2. He has NEVER slept longer than three hours. I wake up at 5am to nurse and decide THAT'S IT!! I hate breast feeding and I am absolutely going to quit. Then my sweet baby boy decides sleeping in bed with mommy and daddy is the only way to go and I can't go back to sleep for fear of rolling over him and killing him but dear god... I just can't listen to him cry anymore!

Then my day "starts" (I feel like my days and nights have run together for 6 weeks without a definite break) and after a cigarette (that's right after 10 months of no smoking I can't make it through the day without the one in the morning!) I think to myself I could do breastfeeding one more day. I look after my beautiful son and smile. I say to myself I can do this and try to have a good day. I have a good morning and then realize that I would love to do XYZ today but can't because it will take more than 2 hours and I can't breastfeed in public! I just don't have the skills I need my pillow and such and really what is the point when its going to take FOREVER- I might as well just go home. So I resign myself to the fact that I won't be leaving the house for at least the next 6 months If I can't do my errand in 2 hours or less.

My husband comes home from work and by the time its time for bed at the 9 pm feeding I am in tears and telling myself yet again that I hate breastfeeding!!!

I go from happy to sad to happy to sad so much in a 24 hour period of time that I feel like I just might lose my damn mind!

Sorry for the rambling... I have no energy to form a coherent thought let alone a good sentence.

chimneygrl · March 2013

You are not alone. I am feeling the same way about breastfeeding. My DH and I had to use formula for the first week, until my milk came in. Well we still use formula at night, so I can get some sleep. You need to decide if you will be happier not breastfe

Drea926 · March 2013

My heart goes out to you. I recently decided to stop BFing for the sake of my sanity. I am in the process of replacing feeds with bottles and I am already feeling better. Definitely do what will make you happy. I am learning first hand the concept of happ

marionravenwood · March 2013

I felt like this until I started pumping. You could just pump and supplement when expressed milk when you have errands to run or at night. At least it would give you a break.

PnkDingo · March 2013

Colton will be 8 weeks Monday, Until this past weekend (right before 7 weeks) it was still 30-45 minutes every time he nursed, he's now down to anywhere between 10-20 minutes.And only in the past 2 days has he started going every hour and a half instea

apastinack · March 2013

My BF routine in full is a diaper change first to get him good and awake, then nursing without a blanket on him. I play with his hands, feet, rub his cheek take his clothes off and none of this helps. During the day is a different story. He is more ale

apastinack · March 2013

Also if I wanted to switch to exclusively pumping what would that entail and how would I go about making a switch?

beanersmommy · March 2013

I EP'd with DD, and it was a lot of work. Basically, I would pump every time I was supposed to breastfeed. Eventually, I was able to space out pumping more, but it required getting up in the middle of the night, making sure I always had parts clean, ma

downtown80 · March 2013

He may be comfort sucking too. And if you are trying to wake or move him before he's in that deep sleep, that could explain why he's waking up.

With my DD, she would do that. I would let her nurse. Then she'd fall asleep on the boob and wake

beanersmommy · March 2013

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kdanis80 · March 2013

Due to BFing issues I have been EPing for a few weeks. I am not sure if its a whole lot easier than BFing. I pump every 2-3 hours during day and sometime se go for 4at night. But then I have to arrange each of these times around when I think b

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