Deep thoughts
IBackBevo
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I have to say that here lately I have been in "feel sorry for myself" mode. I've just been so down about feeling like I'm in this predicament of not knowing what to do - my AMH is undetectable, my hormones are crazy, my cycles are whack, I keep having mood swings and night sweats...and I feel terrible about my weight/body. I think my hormonal issues are contributing to having a hard time losing weight. I feel like I'm going into menopause and probably need to have another kid if I am going to...and I do want another one. Yet, I can logically say now is probably not the greatest time for another baby. However, I also can't get overly excited about dumping a bunch of money into IVF and freezing eggs, etc. (not to mention the physical/emotional aspect of it) when all of that is is a big "maybe" given my numbers, the fact that even if I could get some embryos who knows if they would make the thaw in a few years, etc.
Well, today, after spending some time on my the board I found on Fragile X on facebook, I don't feel so bad for myself anymore. How does the saying go? "I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet."
I realized that I have an awful lot to be thankful for. I have a son...a son who seems to be healthy. Maybe I won't get to have another baby. That makes me sad. But I still have an awful lot be happy about.
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
May 2014 January Siggy Challenge:
Re: Deep thoughts
IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
beta #2 11/28 = 2055
Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!