Anxiety

So obviously we don't know when our LOs will arrive to meet us and this may sound very petty but I am feeling some great anxiety in regards to it this time.  The reasons are because I already have a toddler at home, my husband will be away most likely when the baby comes, and I have no one I can depend on should I go into labor at night that is less than 40 min away.  Every one close has children so I wouldn't expect them to wake up their child in the middle of the night to come help.  I don't have any family living nearby either-or anyone that could come stay while they wait for me to go into labor.

 Time is something I may not have much of.  My first child (and last as of now) was only a 5 hour labor.  I am a little freaked out by the fact that they say statistically this one could be even shorter which means I am nervous about childcare getting here, nervous about getting to the hospital on time (without having to drive myself).  I suppose there is always calling an ambulance.  I do have a doula....but she is 40 minutes away also. Any insight on second time labors and the length of them or any ideas to just chill the heck out?  I am only at 20 weeks....I can only imagine the kind of crazy I'll feel as we get closer.  Kind of hoping it has the opposite affect-that I'll be so ready that I'll just trust things will work out.  Any encouragement is appreciated.