First off - I LOVE my job. I spent 9.5 years in post-high school education to get to where I am. It is what I should be doing. I'm very good at it and enjoy helping patients.
However, the past few weeks my motivation is seriously waning. I'm having issues remembering to finish charts. I have been working on CE course since October and I'm only on assignment 4 out of 9 (I want to have it done before LO gets here). And, I find myself wishing for no shows so that I can do things related to LO's arrival rather than do my job. I have actually daydreamed about being able to stay home instead of continue working. (Which is not an option at all because I am going to be a single mom). I've been staying off the bump lately to see if it would help my motivation pick up... but if anything, not having a regular "mom-fix" is actually making things worse. I was getting more done when I was bumping during the day....
I knew motherhood would change me, but I never thought it would make me feel this way about my career. I'm leaving the Navy in August, and I haven't even started looking for a job... I have barely scraped together a resume. And, I can't get myself to care. I know that I should because we will have bills to pay and I will need to find some sort of opportunity - I just don't know how. All I care about is LO getting here...
Re: Having serious issues getting motivated at work...
When I was pregnant with DD, I had absolutely no motivation at all. Projects that had to be finished before she came - I barely got them done and did them poorly. I made a $2500 mistake because I was being lazy. It was rough. I daydreamed about staying home (though it wasn't a possibility or even something I'd wanted prior to being 6 months pregnant) or of quitting my job and doing something with less brain power.
I was a new person when I came back from maternity leave. I was more confident than I had been in YEARS and I was ready to tackle anything. I was excited to be at work and went back to my old ways of being efficient and organized. Unfortunately, that didn't change the fact that my job sucked and the people around me refused to be efficient and organized, so I eventually got sucked back into the laziness, but...totally unrelated to being a mom. I have a fantastic job now and I'm hoping that really mitigates the short-timer's attitude I had before going on mat. leave with DD.
There is hope for you yet!
We really need the money, and I carry our insurance through my job so I know quitting is not an option, but everyday all I think about is staying home with LO. I really hope I get my drive back after maternity leave and it just doesn't get worse once I meet him.
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
I think it's pretty typical. It's hard not to be single-minded right now.
I've had serious issues staying on track at work. I am always behind at this time of year because it's our busiest, but now I am way behind. I feel guilty, because my job is not hard, just tedious, and I have a lot of flexibility. I also work from home 85% of the time, and I struggle with feeling like I'm taking advantage. But apparently not enough to kick my butt into gear...