Tuesday I went for my 10 week check up on US turns out baby had only grown to 8weeks there was no HB got sent to the ER to do further evaluations turns out I had a "missed miscarriage" I had my dc done yestarday. I can't help but be heart broken wonder how drastically positively my life would have changed. I can't help but wonder how amazing all those first moments would have made my bf I feel. First Christmas, 1st birthday, first loose tooth, prom, graduation, what career he/she would have persued. I'm just so broken I can't even begin to think of anything to make me feel better, because a loss is a loss weather this person got to walk the earth or not! It's no different because at one point there was a beating heart, a life!! it got taken away all too quickly! W/out even being able to be given that chance at life.
:' that was my baby! now their gone.
Re: Drained emotionally
Oh sweetie, you are not alone. I had my D and E 3 weeks ago today. I lost a son at 18 weeks. You are absolutely correct, we suffered a loss. A terrible loss. It was our baby. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise or belittle how you are feeling.
I am still feeling broken 3 weeks later. I understand the pain you are going through and will keep you very close to my heart. This is an awful experience and something that will take a very long time to get through. This board and the wonderful ladies who have listened to me cry and posted their stories have helped me so much. Just knowing I was not alone and could come on here to talk it out with people who understand how I am feeling.
You let yourself cry and grieve for as long as you need to. Know that we are all here for you and understand the pain and heartbreak you feel. I took someone's advice and got a little charm for my bracelet to honor my angel baby. Other people have planted a garden or bought a necklace. There have been some wonderful ideas shared among this lovely group of women. Please continue to reach out to us for support. It's helped me so much and we'll be here for you.
Take care! I am so very sorry for your loss and for your pain. I wish you all the best for a healthy and happy pregnancy when you decide to try again. Hugs to you!