PW: Wrote something
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Warning: about loss
As I've been trying to "heal" (I can't think of a better word) from losing our baby, I've been working on this poem. Writing has always been my way of coping since I have trouble talking, and getting it out in the open helps me to know that even if I can't talk about it, our baby has not been forgotten. There's a quote that has resonated with me ever since I read it, "there is no foot so small that it does not leave an imprint on this world." Our baby left an imprint on my heart, and there's a beauty in even our baby's short life that deserves to be acknowledged and cherished.
This, then, is my way of cherishing the memory of our baby. I hope it's OK that I am posting it here...as odd as it sounds, I feel more support from this board than I do from FB. If you ladies don't want it here, I'll DD.
Izzy's Tree
You never felt the breeze,
You never knew a spring.
You never knew a drop of rain,
Or the joy that summer brings.
We never sang you lullabies
But we loved you just the same.
We never knew you, Little One,
But we?ve given you a name.
We know you live in our hearts
And want the world to see;
So Daddy, Emmy, and I
Bought you a cherry tree.
It will feel the breeze
And will sway in its embrace.
It will know many springs
In its special place.
Its leaves will dance in the rain,
Unfettered and free
It will stretch its limbs in joy
With every summer It will see.
Because you went to heaven,
We?re bringing a little heaven here,
We will honor you this way
And keep your memory dear.
We will rest in its shade
With songs within our hearts.
The tree will remind us,
True love never parts.
Re: PW: Wrote something
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Thanks everyone. I was afraid to check this thread at first, but your kind words and encouragement mean a lot to me.
Joi, I'm so glad you liked it. I know that many of us are still grieving our little ones, and I didn't want to dredge up painful memories. You have all been so supportive of me, and the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone. I'll say a prayer for your little one today too.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's been about three months since we lost our baby, and it's like the pain comes in waves. The periods of strength get longer, and the waves of hurt get less of an edge, but I think we will always feel ripples from our losses. I try to tell myself that it's good, it means our baby, though it never took a breath, made an impact on this world. Every step I take now is somehow affected by that child. If I cuddle Emily a little more, if I speak more gently to any child in my care, if I choose seize the chance to play on a sunny day instead of doing chores...then that's Izzy, and it's wonderful.
I wasn't really ready to talk for a while after my miscarriage so I understand if it's too painful for now, but I am always here for you if you need to talk. Joi is right, I don't think a mother ever gets over losing her child, but we do accept it in the end. I'm not really there yet, but I'm trying.
Please don't hesitate to PM me or any of us if you need to or want to.