Crazy dreams & kind of coming out on FB about IF...

YouMe&Bax · February 2013

Okay, so anybody else experience crazy dreams after having an HCG shot? I tried to google it - but not much came up. I figure since it is the pregnancy hormone - and pregnant women have crazy dreams (so I've heard) - then that might be the cause? Anyway, I've been having super strange dreams and this morning I posted about one as it was super funny and a few of my friends would get a kick out of it. I put...

"Had a dream I was visited by the ghosts of the past, present and future last night. These roles were played by drag queens (Nicole, Stefanie, and Carmen) I used to know! Lol I think it's safe to say I've been having some very strange dreams lately!!"

The first response I got was, "you're preggers" to which I replied, "I wish"...I know that's not *really* coming out to friend and family about IF...but for me it felt like a HUGE step in the right direction. DH wants to keep it very private - where as the longer we go the more I want to talk about it. So, I feel like I had a little IF victory today - which is nice b/c I was starting to get quite down about it yesterday!

MrsM507 · February 2013

I didn't have any crazy dreams... but I am at a point where I am struggling with keeping IF a secret. I am always getting asked if we are trying or planning to and I feel like it would stop and people would back off if they knew. I also have missed out on a lot of events/outings due to complications from cysts, feeling sick from clomid etc... It's hard. The longer it goes on, the harder it gets to keep quiet. I'm really torn about it.

ETA I am so concerned/worried that it would come across as looking for sympathy/attention - which is the last thing I want. So for now, I guess I'm keeping quiet.

PurplePanda2 · February 2013

I have been feeling the same way about "coming out" some days I have the desire to post something cryptic on FB about it, but then I think back on how I hate it when people post things like "having a bad day" but don't say why - seems like a cry for attention.

But sometimes coming out to the "right" people can be very freeing - I have told a few of my friends and they have been really supportive, so I was glad I told them, but I am also glad i did it privately and didn't tell my whole facebook group.

YouMe&Bax · February 2013

PurplePanda2:
But sometimes coming out to the "right" people can be very freeing - I have told a few of my friends and they have been really supportive, so I was glad I told them, but I am also glad i did it privately and didn't tell my whole facebook group.

That's a very valid point. I think once we tell DHs family I'll feel better. My family already knows, and there's no point in all my FB friend knowing - I haven't seen some of them in almost 10 years! His mom will be here at the end of March and he has agreed to have the talk with her. Once she knows, the whole family will, so it'll be good!

YouMe&Bax · February 2013

MrsM507:
I didn't have any crazy dreams... but I am at a point where I am struggling with keeping IF a secret. I am always getting asked if we are trying or planning to and I feel like it would stop and people would back off if they knew. I also have missed out on a lot of events/outings due to complications from cysts, feeling sick from clomid etc... It's hard. The longer it goes on, the harder it gets to keep quiet. I'm really torn about it.
ETA I am so concerned/worried that it would come across as looking for sympathy/attention - which is the last thing I want. So for now, I guess I'm keeping quiet.

I feel the same way about the concern.

Somedays I just want to post an IF related meme or someecard picture...nothing too "cry for help-ish" but something that I relate to...if that makes sense...

icogburn · February 2013

Thanks for the warning on the HCG shot. I already have crazy dreams...my husband laughs because I travel the world through my dreams. So maybe the shot will be awesome for me. HA HA HA HA!

I feel the same way. I have told my friends personally, but only those going through it or my very close friend has any understanding. I know if I put it on FB, I would get..."Quit stressing, or when it is God's timing." When I really want to hear, "That totally sucks, praying for you to stay strong!" So in order to not get mad with any of my friends who don't know the right thing to say...I haven't brought it up on FB. I thought maybe once I get pregnant, I will say what a tough and long road it was.

Cara1024 · February 2013

I would be happy/excited about that small "coming out" victory also. Good for you!!!!

YouMe&Bax · February 2013

Cara1024:
I would be happy/excited about that small "coming out" victory also. Good for you!!!!

Thanks

xtina78 · February 2013

I can't remember any crazy dreams with the trigger, but it did give me insomnia!

I am now on a facebook hiatus, however I have had fantasies of totally losing my sh$t on there and disclosing our whole IF struggles.

scbedi · February 2013

I kind of "came out" at the end of January when I shared the link to my blog on FB. I have gotten nothing but positive response and I have even gotten messages from friends who went through IF treatment and I didn't even know it. I felt better about sharing the link too because the people who actually want to know what's going on in my life will click on the link and read my blog. I felt SUCH a relief when I did it too!

ETA: OH yeah!! yay for your victory!!