I am a bundle of emotion. I saw their heartbeats last week at 9wks 2ds. I cried and I felt relieved but now as the days go on and I realize I won't see them again until I'm 13wks 3ds. I am starting to have that worry creep back into me. What if something goes wrong? What if my strong babies don't make it? I have gone through a miscarriage before and I'm so scared that something bad will happen again. I don't want to lose them. They are my miracle babies. Sometimes I wish that I could just have an ultrasound machine installed in my house so that every other week or so I could just peek at them to make sure they are ok. Are there any other mothers who felt this way? I'm just a worried mommy.
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July 2012: BFP - August 2012: MC
January 2013: BFP - WE ARE HAVING TWINS!!

Re: I Made it to Ten Weeks Pregnant...
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Fraternal boys born on May 11, 2013 at 36 weeks 4 days
I get it. I lost three before my twins. Hang in there!!!
So happy for you.
I too get worried. My next us is on march 4th and I can't wait! I'll be 16 weeks then. I haven't had a loss and this is my first pregnancy, but I've been reading too many sad stories which bring on the fears. I even thought yesterday morning about how I don't feel pregnant, but an hour later major constipation hit and a day long of suffering commenced! (Sorry if tmi). I sure was reminded that I am very much pregnant and have a good belly going on.
You've done great making it 10weeks! You are almost to the 2nd tri!! Yay!! Hang in there and keep thinking positively. As others have said, if we don't have any worrisome signs we have to trust that babies are ok. I too pray regularly for my babies. It's comforting.
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After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
I was the same way with my twin pregnancy. Being pregnant after a miscarriage/loss is really, really tough on the emotions and the mind. One of the good things about being pregnant with twins after a miscarriage though is you get to be monitored so much more closely and so much more often than you would be if you were having one baby. It's not easy though, and honestly, the fear didn't go away for me until I saw my boys in the operating room.
I would really suggest you hang out on the PgAL board on here. It helped me out a lot. Also, I wrote a blog about the other things that kept me sane during a post-miscarriage pregnancy if you're bored: https://doublerainbowtwins.blogspot.com/2012/11/pgal-pregnancy-after-miscarriage.html
Lost our first little peanut on 1/17/2012 at 9 weeks and 5 days. We miss you little blessing, but we know you were too perfect for this world.
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I feel the same way. I had my first u/s at 7w. Then I had my last one with my RE at 9w and my first with my MFM at 9w1d. Then my NT scan at 12w1d... then I don't have another u/s with them unitl 20 weeks (anatomy scan.) I thought the 3 week wait between 9 and 12 weeks was tough. There was no way I could wait 8 weeks so we did an elective at 16w3d.
Since between 7w and 9w we found out that we had lost one baby, I was a wreck between 9w and 12w... then again between 12w and 16w3d. I am less of a wreck now, but I still worry.
H said he wishes we could have a u/s machine. We just like to see our babies more often!
I understand how you feel.My babies are almost 7 months old.But when we found out we were having twins, I almost did not let myself get excited or attached.I was scared something was going to go wrong.
I don;t know when I started feeling OK-nervous but OK.But it came with time.