i am so freaking frustrated because for 2.5 seconds i felt SO lucky that my insurance covered breast pumps before the healthcare reform, and that from what i was told my coverage was only going to improve (i.e an electric pump). well, turns out HOWS ABOUT NO?! i called my insurance and they told me that due to some loophole my employer is able to and has opted-out of the healthcare reform bill and now doesnt cover ANY breastpumps. WTH.
so now, i'm trying to find an affordable breastpump that isnt a piece of crap and i found one. great right? not so fast! It's cheapest from walmart and I go back to look at it tonight, preparing to order it as its not sold in my store and ITS SOLD OUT ONLINE. so ive signed up to get an email when its available again, but still.
i also had the norovirus and legitimately thought i was dying for a brief period. the vomiting was making me contract SO INTENSELY i am now more terrified than ever for labor. and because i obviously killed someone very benevolent and important in a past life, the (tmi) diarrhea was making my stomach cramp in the few moments that it had a break from the regular-10-minutes-apart contractions. so here i am days later and my body still hurts all over from all the heaving, contracting and cramps. those contractions were no joke, it was very seriously the most painful thing i had ever felt. maybe im just a baby but prior to this, the most pain i had ever been in was having a fairly large cyst rupture. that didnt have SHIITT on this. it was like being tickled compared to those devil contractions. :[
if you read that whole thing you deserve cookies and a medal! feel free to add your own rants and whines, we need to let it out!
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Oh my god, I am so sorry! Sounds like you have been through hell... on the bright side, childbirth may seem relatively easy!
I am mostly mentally frustrated with a ton of work and no time to do it. I have recently made a lot of good progress at work, and have had some great opportunities come my way, but it is frustrating that I cannot tackle them with my usual aplomb...
I can definitely see where you're coming from. Having cramps and contractions (on top of being sick to your stomach) that don't end in holding a baby in your arms is just cruel and unusual punishment.
In 2011 I had to have a D/C to deal with a miscarriage that turned out to be a complete molar pregnancy (that then needed to be treated with chemo), and my DR did such a crappy job of getting rid of the bad tissue that I ended up being prescribed a medication to make my uterus contract to eliminate the rest of the tissue. Unfortunately, I had a bad reaction to the med and I ended up with one large severely painful unending cramp.
I ended up in the ER in the middle of the night in NYC (hellllloooo crazies!), where the OB resident on duty had not a clue as to how to do a sonogram, so I was then used as a guinea pig while I screamed in agony from this cramp. It was seriously torture. Then the 2 drs were like, you need a d/c, and I was like, sorry, got one of those 2 days ago, I need painkillers, OK? Finally, 8 hours after this med kicked in, a kind nurse came in and injected a bit of morphine into my IV, and it was IMMEDIATE relief. But afterwards, everyone I knew was like, how do you plan on having an unmedicated birth if you can't deal with some cramps? Um, because cramps with no baby at the end of the ordeal is not cool, not cool at all. And now of course, I'm terrified of needing an induction because I don't think my body takes well to drugs that cause cramps.
So, I feel your pain.