Vent: My body...don't fail me now!(long)

Katlady84 · December 2008

I think I've been sick for my entire pregnancy. Not throwing up sick, but with a cough/cold thing that I just can't get rid of. I know its just a cold, but to have it for at least four months now is really starting to wear on me. I'm starting to think this is my new "normal" and that's just frightening.

?What's worse, I feel like my body is totally crapping out on me. This needs some explanation, so bare with me. I have spinal muscular atrophy, a genetic condition which leads to overall muscle weakness and other unpleasant complications. It limits my mobility quite a bit (I can walk, but not very far, I use a wheelchair a lot of the time). I've always done pretty well with it and have retained a lot of my independence, but pregnancy is straining me considerably. My already weak muscles have gotten weaker under the strain of weight gain, hormones, normal pregnancy exhaustion, etc. I am getting to the point where I'm going into the 3rd tri and I'm afraid it will get to a point where I won't be able to take care of myself anymore.?

?My doctor said after the baby is born my body will probably go back to the level it was before I was pregnant, but it also might not. I'm scared of that possibility.

So I guess I need some...."body, don't fail!" dust or something. ?I'm proud of the fact I'm growing a healthy baby (who wont have what I have, did genetic testing) which is something I didn't ever think I'd be able to do. I knew it would be hard....but, well, damn it, its hard.?