A little discouraged.

I'm pregnant with my second girl after a previous laboring process that ended in a c-section after 4 hours of pushing. A little back story on pregnancy number one, I had been having a normal pregnancy until the last month and a half, swelling so bad my feet turned purple and looked like I had inflated them like a pool toy, my blood pressure was going up and a few times there was a presence of protein in my urine. The Doctor dismissed all of this like it was just a normal occurrence, after sitting there and laughing at me for wanting to at least attempt a natural birth, he scheduled me for an induction which I pushed back because he never told me I was at risk for anything but having a big baby. (I hate it when doctors say this) Well I tried everything to get my body to go into labor on it's own without having to do pictocin or the cydotech(sp?). Nothing worked so I went in to be induced at 42 weeks, when the cydotech went in the first dose did nothing, after the second dose I started contracting, not too close together and not very strong but it was something, I probably didn't sleep that whole night but I was just happy something was happening. When 7 am rolled around my doctor came in and I was still just 1 cm dilated, he broke my water without informing me he would be doing so and started the pictocin. Being exhausted from not sleeping I felt kind of powerless against this horrid person. I went full blown preeclampsia and had to be put on magnesium where they wouldn't even let me out of the bed because it makes your muscles so weak you're a fall risk after being dosed with it. The contractions were 2 minutes apart from that point on and extremely intense, my husband and mother were trying to get me to calm down but it was hard between the vomiting and rolling in pain. After a few hours I finally gave into my pain and they got me an epidural, within the time from 7 to noon I had fully dilated. I pushed for 4 hours to no avail even though I could see her head, my contractions weren't strong enough to push her out because of the magnesium. at 6:02 that evening they delivered her via c-section, which was the last thing I wanted to happen. I wasn't allowed out of bed for two days afterwards because of the mg. and had to wait for 3 days after that to go home. It was a nightmare of a recovery and I've hated soup ever since(They had me on a liquid diet the entire time) .

I'm now at the 37 week mark of my second pregnancy and am starting to show signs of preeclampsia all over again, but I want so badly to have a VBAC on this one, my cervix is soft but the very top is still closed. I realize I am just now past the point of full term but I know my body is becoming dangerous for this second little girl.  I had a sonogram last week and they estimated the baby is about 7 pounds, and I have borderline too much amniotic fluid(Think half a cm away from being at the too much point). The doctor knows I want to try this VBAC and has been okay with me trying, but now she keeps bringing up that I am having a "big" baby and that I have foolish optimism for wanting a vaginal birth. Since I'm at a safe point is there any tips I can get for getting my body to go into labor? I won't try castor oil again as my first did pass meconium in her sac after I took it and I do think that was one of the reasons other than her being 2 weeks over due. I'm already taking Evening Primrose Oil as instructed, but is there anything else that seemed to work?