I was able to have my visit with my birthson finally. It was cancelled and rescheduled so sorry for the delay.
It went great. I wasnt too emaotional and handled it better than expected. I loved seeing how happy he was with his APs they are so loving and affectionate with him. It was a nice relief to see how well they were all adjusting. I got to hold him and sooth him and wow did it feel good! I was even able to call him by his new name (they changed it after the adoption)
Thanks for all your support.