Hi everyone -
I had my son 8 months ago - he was colicky for the first 2 months, cried non-stop, wouldn't sleep.. all of the usual new baby things. I was exhausted, and felt at my wit's end. I chocked it up to the baby blues, I never thought it was PPD.
But 8 months later, I am still wondering. I am up and down like a roller coaster emotionally. My husband complains that he does everything around the house, cooks, cleans, etc. And all I do is watch the baby and sit around. We've had talks about it, but we're both stressed and it never ends in a solution. I do clean, do laundry, but I do lack in the cooking dinner department. But I've told him how I feel, and I DO think about making dinner every single day.. but then something comes up, the baby won't nap, he's teething, or I just think about it - that's it.
I feel like I've lost my mind sometimes - like, I feel like I'm unable to think or process words sometimes. I know, totally weird. It freaks me out! I don't feel like me. I don't even really remember who I was before I had a baby. I keep thinking I'm just overwhelmed and frustrated, but my husband keeps telling me to get help.
I don't know what I should do? I can't seem to open up at all, and I don't want it to hurt my relationship.
Also - wondering if any SAHM's have any advice - what do you get done during the day? I want to get things done, I want to get everything done.. but I feel like I've lost any glimpse of motivation I once had! I've tried exercising, talking to a friend, taking a drive... anything to get my mind working. Maybe I spend too much time alone with the baby? I don't know.
Any advice is welcomed! Thanks, ladies!