Goodbye from Cincy/Toronto

I don't know why making a new screen name is SO DAMN HARD, TB doesn't make it hard, I'm making it hard because I'm sad about it and I don't know why other than ALL of my posts about Lillian are connected to this name and I'm sad/scared/afraid to part with it.

I hate how this tragidy in our lives make the smallest/stupidiest/littlest/most insigfinicant things suddenly a big deal and then with other things that I used to care about, I'm like "Who the hell cares how the budget works out this month, if I gain or lose 10 lbs, if this friend is stabbing that friend in the back. I'm dealing with the loss of my child, my priorites and what I care about it life have changed."

and right now a stupid screen name is one of those. I'm changing it now and I REALLY hope the one I want is available. I want it more than anything because of it's significance and I want to be able to have a siggy like everyone else damnit

See you soon ladies...