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My brother and his wife had their baby yesterday...

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I got the phone call shortly after she was born from my mom and then the first beautiful text picture around 2:30am.  They had decided that sex would be a secret, so I didn't know if I was going to have a new niece or nephew.  I also had no idea of names.  It is a girl and they named her Isla Kenzie (pronounced eye-la).  She's amazing.  I went with DH to visit yesterday and I held her almost the whole hour we were there (aside from the 10 minutes DH held her).  I melted.  I couldn't stop staring at her beautiful little face.  She grabbed my finger and held tight.  It was amazing.

 

BUT - when I got in the car, I just started SOBBING.  I mean, UGLY cry.  I don't think poor DH really knew what to do with me.  I've been almost in tears on and off every since.  I don't think I knew just how badly I want to have our own baby until I held little Isla.  I can't decide where these feelings are coming from - sheer emotional overload from holding a newborn?  jealousy?  sadness?  I just don't know.  

 

I guess I'm just looking to know that I'm not the only one out there having similar crazy emotions over other people having babies.

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Married 7-16-10; TTC since July 2011
Me - 34; DH - 35
Dx: Unexplained Azoo; all blood work normal (including chromosomal abnormality screens); no blockages; 2 SAs with zero sperm, TESA/TESE - no sperm found, likely never produced
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Natural Cycle IUI 9/3/13... 9/18/13 - BFP!!!!  Stick baby stick!
Beta #1 9/19 (16dpiui) 144 hCG; 19.6 progesterone - Crinone to increase levels; Beta #2 9/23 (20dpiui) 705 hCG; 19.6 progesterone - continue Crinone; Beta #3 9/30 (27dpiui) 8355 hCG; 16.1 progesterone - continue Crinone
U/S #1 10/8 Awesome ultrasound!  1 healthy, growing little bean.  H/R 128bpm, measuring 6 weeks, 6 days!; U/S #2 10/21 Just as awesome!  H/R 179bpm, measuring 8 weeks 6 days!; Surprise U/S #3 10/28 - still moving along!  Measuring 9 weeks 5 days; 12 week U/S & NT Scan 11/13/13: one wiggly, jumpy, kicking, punching, thumb sucking little bean!!!  Scan looks good, normal measurements.  :)  H/R 170 bpm; 12/11: Doppler registered H/R at 150 bpm; 12/20: Underlying Chronic Hypertension - Methyldopa to control BP; 1/2/2014 - It's a boy!!!!  Everything looks awesome!
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  • MJ14323MJ14323 member
    You aren't the only one! We've all been there. And good for you going to the hopsital and visiting them.  That takes strength, even if you broke down after. I'm not looking forward to going to the hospital when my SIL/BIL have their 3rd later this spring. Ehh.

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  • Julie21613Julie21613 member

    You aren't alone.  I have nieces and nephews whom I love with all my heart and soul... but, after I spend a day playing and loving them, I always go home and cry for hours.....let yourself cry.  It is 100% normal.  and Its probably a little bit of everything... jealousy, sadness and the longing for your own.

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    Diagnose me. DOR, DH perfect
    IUI # 1 6/2010, BFN
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    Mental health break for 10 months
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    IVF # 3 5/2012 BFP! 10 eggs retrieved (best ever)
    7 fertilized transferred 3
    Beta #1 14dpo - 72, Beta #2 17dpo 145 Beta 3 20dpo 521
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    IVF#4 ER 9/30 ET 10/3 Beta 10/16 BFFN. IVF #5 final with o/e. ER 1/21 only 1 retrieved, hoping my lonestar is the one. Beta #1 2/6/13 = 209.... please let this be it! Keep growing lonestar! Beta #2 2/8/13 - 586! , Beta #3 2/10/13 = 1898. First u/s perfect little heart beat at 116 bpm. Measure 6 weeks 1 day. EDD 10/14/13
    3/4/13 measuring right on track beautiful heartbeat 171 bpm, graduated from RE to OB... bittersweet.
    PAIF/SAIF always welcome! Its a girl! 

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  • fallbrideoct05fallbrideoct05 member
    My best friend is in labor right now with number 3 and I'm SO nervous for going to visit.  I think it's "normal" for us IF gals unfortunately...  I hope we all get our healthy pregnancies soon!
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  • NYCGal276NYCGal276 member

    You are NOT alone!  I had a nervous breakdown in Babies R Us the other day picking up a gift for a friend.  Sometimes I sit with my friends kids and I'm fine, and all of a sudden, 20 minutes in, I have to say something like "I think he pooped" so she takes him away bc I'm about to burst :-(  

    It's okay!  Your RE apt is SOON! :-) 

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  • oO Angie OooO Angie Oo member

    I think all of your emotions are natural.  Of course you love little Isla to death but its tough. I had a mc and my best friend delivered her baby two weeks later. DH and I went to the hospital and as we walked out to the car I was stillin the parking lot and lost it. Cried so hard I was choking. We never said a word during my cry and to this day never brought it up again. I was so happy and so sad all at the same time. Crazy emotions. 

    Nonetheless- congrats on the new niece and GL to you in having your own! :)

     

    Me: 29 DH: 32 Married: 10.25.07 Been dealing with amenorrheoa since I was young. (Literally go years w/o AF) Unexpected and very surprising BFP in Feb 2007. M/C April 2007. :( TTC since 2008 Metformin- Didn't help. :( Clomid 50mg/Provera cycle #1 7/2009 - BFN Clomid 50mg/Provera cycle #2- 8/2009- BFN Clomid 100mg/Provera cycle #3- 1/2010- BFN ...Took a break... 2012- Met with RE 09/12- Day 3 Labs- FSH 2.5, Estradiol 47, TSH 4.5 (Doc re-ordering Day 3 labs) DH sperm analysis- all good 11/12- Day 3 Labs- FSH 4.3, estradiol 38, TSH 2.51 Prescribed Synthroid 11/12- HSG all clear 1/13- IUI with Femara and trigger shot on 1/31- BFN 2/13-IUI #2- cancelled due to low response 3/13- planning IUI with injectables
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