I am 2.5 weeks PP, the hospital was a rough place for me. I was induced at 41.5 weeks, wound up pushing for almost 4 hours and the last 2 I was in unbearable pain. DD was "sunny side up" and stuck on a nerve which was causing me all the pain. Wound up doing a csection ( which was my choice and I was ok with the decision). I wasn't able to hold my daughter for a while because I was on so much anesthesia. I was happy and all, but after a day or so I realized I wasn't very connected to her.
i struggled with infertility for 7 years before going through a divorce and meeting my current DH, we got pregnant very easily... We weren't even trying. I was over the moon! This is what I had wanted for so long. So why don't I feel that overwhelming love for this little person? I was so connected when she was inside me... What happened?
once we got home this got a little better, but it still doesn't seem like I am where I should be. I don't feel depressed but I only want to sleep (I know don't we all), food is uninteresting, and I only eat when I have to.
i am taking care of my DD. I am functioning... No one notices anything might be wrong... They all say I am doing so great, but I feel like I am just going through the motions.
I am not sure what to.