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My Story

jebretzjebretz member
in Late Term and Child Loss

So, I realized that I had posted on the miscarriage board, and while I greatly appreciate the support there, since it was a later loss I feel more at home here. I just wanted to put my story out there 

On Dec 31, 2012 I lost my triplets. On my 20 week date I noticed a small amount of light pink spotting. Being high risk, I called and was instructed to be seen. On arrival I was connected to the monitor and it was downhill from there. I saw the contractions even though I felt nothing.  Then I had bright red spotting. The exam confirmed my worst fears, I was fully dilated. That night it was confirmed that we would definitely lost our first baby, as she was already through the cervix. I held hope that we could save the other two.  Over the next two days it became apparent that things were not looking good. Sunday night I started feeling the contractions through the epidural and I knew deep down I was feeling pressure, that this was it.

Monday Dec 31, 2012, at 20 weeks and 3 days I delivered all three of my perfect babies.  Allison Grace was born at 11:01, 10.2 ounces.  James Alexander was born at 11:28, 11.5 ounces. Colin Gregory was born at 12:28, 11.3 ounces. They were beautiful.  I treasure the time I had to hold them, talk to them, caress them. I don't feel like it was long enough, but then I remind myself that it would have never been long enough unless it was a lifetime.

Every night I worry that I will forget them, and every morning I can see and remember them like it was yesterday.  As everyone can say, I wanted these babies so bad, was so excited to be a mom. They were my first, but hopefully will not be my last. One day at a time... that's all I can do.

Jenna  

TTC since May 2011
Provera x3 late 2011, no natural response. (Previous BCP for 12 years).
 Dx PCOS April 2012. 
Clomid x 4 - no response.
First FSH/Ovidrel cycle early Aug 2012 - 18 days of injections, slow growth, erratic estrogen levels, triggered Aug 21st. 
BFP Sept 4th and Sept 7th! 
 7wk US Sept 28th - triplets! 
Perfect triplets lost at 20 weeks due to incompetent cervix. Allison Grace, James Alexander and Colin Gregory forever in our hearts!  
IVF #1 10/11/13 -  canceled before retrieval.  
IVF# 2 11/28/13 - retrieval on Turkey Day! Hyperstim - no transfer
FET #1 2/4/14 - miscarriage @ 9 weeks (Trisomy 6) 
FET #2 6/8/14 - healthy normal baby! Due date 2/25/15
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  • jess123456jess123456 member
    Jenna, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet angels. I hope you find comfort and support here on this board like I have. Please know that you aren't alone and we are here for you.

    Hugs to you.
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  • starburst0928starburst0928

    Welcome! I'm glad you think this board is a good fit for you! There are a lot of wonderful ladies here!

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your wonderful three babies. I'm sure they were beautiful!

    I worry that I'll forget little details so I force myself to relive every minute of when I delivered Bradley. I found that writing down the details helped me be able to 'let to' of the memory, while being able to reference the tiny details. You'll never forget, don't worry!

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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  • calibride2005calibride2005 member
    Im sorry for your loss.  Most of us are late loss mommies and are here to comfort you in any way we can.  ((HUGS))
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers image Me - 41 DH - 28 **** Proud mom to Christopher, dob 7/15/92 **** Nathaniel dob 1/18/05 -1/18/05 (8 mos) in heaven **** bfp 8/26/10 m/c 10/14/10 at 7 wks. **** D&C 10/15/10 **** Cycles 1-4 BFN's **** Cycle #5 - 100 mg Clomid **** IUI #1 - 04/23/11 and 4/24/11 - 5/8/11 IUI #1 = BFFN BFP 10/14/11 - EDD 6/22/12** Stick little one Stick! Athena Jane 5/31/12 - 8/28/12
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  • NoetholaNoethola member

    So sorry you lost your sweet Allison, James and Colin. Welcome to a group of ladies that share similar pain. You will never forget them.

    ((hugs))

    Lilypie - (qptF)


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    "Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."


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  • tuscanbride2007tuscanbride2007 member

    I am so very sorry for your sweet babies, Allison, James and Colin. I hope you find comfort here. The ladies on here are amazing and understand the pain of losing a child(ren).

    ((HUGS))

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • meli1025meli1025 member
    I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet triplets.  Welcome to the board, the ladies here are amazing and we are all here to help each other through this terrible time.  Big ((hugs)) to you. 
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    BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.

    BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.

    BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.

    BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section

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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious babies.  Welcome to this board, although I wish you didn't have to join us here.
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • WilliamandshawnnaWilliamandshawnna member

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Allison Grace, James Alexander and Colin Gregory. I wishyou peace and comfort. I know you will find the support you need through the women here.

    We lost our triplet boys almost 7 months ago now. I still take it day by day, and some days it is hour by hour.

    HUGS

    -Shawnna

    TTC #1 since 10/2010 RE consult 6/2011 PCOS (known) MFI IVF #1 w/ICSI 2/2012 BFP TRIPLETS our angels grew wings at 19.5 weeks 6.25.12 IVF #2 2/2013 Sono shows tissue Hysteroscopy needed Changing RE www.chasingstarsisbettertogether.com Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers ~~~all welcome~~~
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