totally freaking out. just read consent forms and psyching myself out.

jezebel57 · January 2013

so i'm about to lose it. just read all the wonderful consent forms "you may die" etc... risks and i am freaking out. i'm wondering if i should even do this and maybe i am not meant to have biological children and should go for adoption.

the retrieval is what is freaking me out the most, along with the chance of OHSS (which my dr. did say is unlikely because of my AMH level). i know logically that millions of people have this done and the risks are minimal, but i can't help but be scared to death about undertaking such a huge thing.

i go for my sono tomorrow and consent signing wednesday. i think because we are putting a deposit down on wednesday and it is making it final is why i am freaking.

is this a normal thing to be feeling right before a cycle? my anxiety is through the roof.

freeman2121 · January 2013

It is normal. I don't blame you, not only do you have the stress of the journey, but then to have to read/hear the risks, choose what to do with embryos if you die, get divorced, ect. There is nothing easy about infertity. I would have to say, the retrieval itself is my favorite. They give you those wonderful drugs that knock you out. You don't have to do anything other than sleep

Best wishes to you

asilwhite · January 2013

I think it's completely normal to feel really anxious before starting a IVF cycle. It's a big commitment, emotionally, financially and physically and can be overwhelming at times. Also - those consent forms don't help with the anxiety either.

Take a deep breath and take it one day at a time. Maybe try some meditation/relaxation like Cir.cle & Blo.om or acupuncture - that really helps me to relax and try not to worry. GL and I hope your anxiety level goes down!

Crystal120410 · January 2013

It's a scary process, especially when your shelling out a ton of dough. The "you may die" part is so slim of a chance. Any time anesthesia is used they have to tell you that but it's not a likely thing. You'll be ok, just breathe. Good luck

kflynn81 · January 2013

I agree...the retrieval is the best part. If I'm saying that it must be true, because I totally have control issues. You sleep sooooo sound that day though its amazing, LOL

Anxiety is totally normal. I think everyone gets it around consent form signing time. Breathe deep, you'll get through it!!

Good luck!

jadwedd · January 2013

Yeah the whole if you both die what do you want us to do with the embryos totally shook me. All of a sudden I was driving a little bit more carefully! The et is a breeze really. You go and and they give you anestesia, but not like they do for surgery you just get really groggy. But I was a pain and kept trying to stay awake because I was super excited to find out what we got and then if I fell asleep I would snore and wake myself up and the woman kept trying to get me to go to sleep but I was having none of it. And mine was difficult because for some reason my one ovary is shy and hides behind my uterus. Makes those internals so fun and he had to go through my uterus to get to it. It would twinge a little bit and they would give me more meds. But other than that I felt nothing and would do it again. It was paying for it all that gave me the most anxiety.

jezebel57 · January 2013

thank you freeman, i am going to repeat that to myself a thousand times when laying down to try to sleep tonight (the retrieval is my favorite, the retrieval is my favorite". i like not having to do anything but sleep. wondering if that's why i'm freaked out about it. control freaks don't like not doing anything!

i've calmed down a bit after listening to meditation tapes for ivf and am hoping to be able to get some sleep. thanks again.

jezebel57 · January 2013

thank you asilwhite, i haven't tried circle and bloom but do have some zita somebody ivf meditation that i am trying to do nightly. i had acupuncture on friday and am scheduled again this week so will be asking for the relaxation cocktail.

jezebel57 · January 2013

thanks everyone, i really truly do appreciate all of you and the ability to share and freak out in this virtual support group i have grown to love. i have been trying to be really positive about everything going smoothly and wonderfully and guess it's normal to have a freak out every once in awhile. i go see a counselor every 2 weeks and she has been through IVF and will calm me down tomorrow at my appointment lol. thank goodness!

SCrier · January 2013

I agree with the first woman that said the retrieval is her favorite part. At that time you are done with the shots and bloodwork, they put you to sleep and you get to relax. Yes, the paperwork is scary but you see the number of couples going through this and you realize everyone comes out fine and its just protocol. Sending you good luck and hope its a success!!!

firesiren · January 2013

Honestly the paperwork is the worst part of ER. Well and then you get the 2 week wait. Good luck to you!! Hang in there!

ball.and.chain · January 2013

It freaked me out too. I will say that it feels like a much bigger deal BEFORE you go through it than after. Having gone through it, I would do it again without a question. I hope I don't have to, but I would.

LaineyPaney · January 2013

PAIF response:

I had mixed emotions doing all of the paperwork. I was ready for the next step...ready for all of it to be over....ready to feel like our family was complete. And, yet, you sign off on those SERIOUS risks and it is totally FREAKY!

If you think it will help to read about others' experience, here's our ER & ET story from September....

ER:

https://lifeisjustsodaily.blogspot.com/2012/09/my-human-caviar.html

ET:

https://lifeisjustsodaily.blogspot.com/2012/09/first-baby-photos.html

Super good luck!!!!

Lacyj67 · January 2013

The retrevial will feel like a breeze once you have endured a two week wait! Good luck!

jezebel57 · January 2013

thank you guys... i love reading about stories of those who have gone through it already and still have positive things to say. the needles aren't bothering me since I"ve done those before (well, maybe I'm a bit nervous about the IM shots, HCG and PIO), but the consent forms is what is making it "real" for me.

I really appreciate everyone taking the time to help calm me down. I'm nervous today anyway due to the sono and any calming stories are always so helpful to me. thanks again!

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