Glad to be done. Glad this part is over and it is no longer in me! Still not sure how to deal with the emotional part of this other than taking it moment by moment and crying when I need to. I hate that any of us had to experience this!
I'm 33 DH is 36
Married 6/27/2009 Together since 10/22/2005 TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/26/2012 U/S #2 8w6d - No more heartbeat, MMC; D&C; Chromosome testing normal; male RPL testing normal
4/3/2013 DX Asherman's Syndrome caused by D&C, hysteroscopy done
June 2013 IVF #4 planned
5/12/2013 SURPRISE BFP! Natural cycle
7/11/2013 Panorama results Normal!!! Team Pink, partial previa moved up in 2nd tri9/5/13 (19w) AS scan shows short cervix, 2.5 cm 9/19 (21w) Cervix is worse 1.87cm, bed rest 10/26 & 10/27 steroid shots 12/19 (35w) DX: SGA Baby went from 57% percentile to 18th percentile in 6 weeks. Weekly BPP and NST until she is here. 1/17/18 Growth scan puts Abby below 10th percent in size, low amniotic fluid, and less movement. Time to induce! 1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
Just take your time emotionally. I promise the healing with slowly start to come...each week you will be suprised how much "better" you feel (even though you will always miss that sweet baby).
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
Thanks for the update. I have a D&C on Monday and I'm terrified, but like you, I just want closure of some kind.
EDD 9/28/2011, lost our little girl (pre-e/iugr) on 6/13/11 @24w5d
EDD 3/12/2013, natural miscarriage on 7/18/12 @6w2d
EDD 8/01/2013, D&C scheduled for 12/31/12 @9w4d
So sorry you have to go Monday. For me, the stress leading up to it was the hardest. I was crying going into surgery and have cried on and off since but I am glad it is over, out of me that kind of glad. I said it before, and hope you understand rather then disturbed but it was hard to know it was still in me not alive, that was really difficult. I think the emotional healing of dealing with a loss was hard with it still in me, if that makes sense. Now I feel like I can deal with the loss now that it is really truly gone. As far as the procedure, it has only been a few hours but I am only lightly bleeding, not really cramping, it burns a little when I pee and my throat is dry from the procedure but I think it is so much better than the idea of going through this naturally. Please keep me updated! I'm thinking about you and sorry you have to go through this too! It is the next step and it will help with the grieving process, which will take its own time. I think Monday will be a big step in this whole process! I'm here if you need to talk or vent and unfortunately understand what you are going through!
I'm 33 DH is 36
Married 6/27/2009 Together since 10/22/2005 TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/26/2012 U/S #2 8w6d - No more heartbeat, MMC; D&C; Chromosome testing normal; male RPL testing normal
4/3/2013 DX Asherman's Syndrome caused by D&C, hysteroscopy done
June 2013 IVF #4 planned
5/12/2013 SURPRISE BFP! Natural cycle
7/11/2013 Panorama results Normal!!! Team Pink, partial previa moved up in 2nd tri9/5/13 (19w) AS scan shows short cervix, 2.5 cm 9/19 (21w) Cervix is worse 1.87cm, bed rest 10/26 & 10/27 steroid shots 12/19 (35w) DX: SGA Baby went from 57% percentile to 18th percentile in 6 weeks. Weekly BPP and NST until she is here. 1/17/18 Growth scan puts Abby below 10th percent in size, low amniotic fluid, and less movement. Time to induce! 1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
I totally understand what you mean. I also am not okay with just waiting for it to happen naturally this time. My last miscarriage, it was too soon for an ultrasound, so there was a lot of waiting just to find out if I was miscarrying (2 weeks!), and by the time they confirmed it, I had already passed it naturally, and painfully too.
I just want it over with quick to pretend it never happened. That may sound heartless to some, but I can't let myself dwell too much, I feel like I've been grieving for many years now and racking up more grief won't do me any good. Waiting until Monday is going to be hard enough...
EDD 9/28/2011, lost our little girl (pre-e/iugr) on 6/13/11 @24w5d
EDD 3/12/2013, natural miscarriage on 7/18/12 @6w2d
EDD 8/01/2013, D&C scheduled for 12/31/12 @9w4d
I totally understand how you are feeling and wish that was where I was. I feel terrified of getting pg again but also know I am not done with trying. I'm scared to try and do a 4th Ivf and fail and scared to do it again and get pg and fear the whole time another loss. I just wish I could fast forward a few months and I am over this and ready to try on our own again until we can afford another Ivf. But I also don't want to deal with everything it took to get pg in the first place again. What else can be said, this sucks!!! I think you will be happy with the decision of the DandC and hope Monday gets here quickly!
I'm 33 DH is 36
Married 6/27/2009 Together since 10/22/2005 TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/26/2012 U/S #2 8w6d - No more heartbeat, MMC; D&C; Chromosome testing normal; male RPL testing normal
4/3/2013 DX Asherman's Syndrome caused by D&C, hysteroscopy done
June 2013 IVF #4 planned
5/12/2013 SURPRISE BFP! Natural cycle
7/11/2013 Panorama results Normal!!! Team Pink, partial previa moved up in 2nd tri9/5/13 (19w) AS scan shows short cervix, 2.5 cm 9/19 (21w) Cervix is worse 1.87cm, bed rest 10/26 & 10/27 steroid shots 12/19 (35w) DX: SGA Baby went from 57% percentile to 18th percentile in 6 weeks. Weekly BPP and NST until she is here. 1/17/18 Growth scan puts Abby below 10th percent in size, low amniotic fluid, and less movement. Time to induce! 1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
Re: DandC is done
glad you made it through the procedure ok!!!
Just take your time emotionally. I promise the healing with slowly start to come...each week you will be suprised how much "better" you feel (even though you will always miss that sweet baby).
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
Everyone Welcome.
EDD 3/12/2013, natural miscarriage on 7/18/12 @6w2d
EDD 8/01/2013, D&C scheduled for 12/31/12 @9w4d
TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/10/2012 U/S #1 6w4d - heartbeat EDD 8/1/13
1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
I totally understand what you mean. I also am not okay with just waiting for it to happen naturally this time. My last miscarriage, it was too soon for an ultrasound, so there was a lot of waiting just to find out if I was miscarrying (2 weeks!), and by the time they confirmed it, I had already passed it naturally, and painfully too.
I just want it over with quick to pretend it never happened. That may sound heartless to some, but I can't let myself dwell too much, I feel like I've been grieving for many years now and racking up more grief won't do me any good. Waiting until Monday is going to be hard enough...
EDD 3/12/2013, natural miscarriage on 7/18/12 @6w2d
EDD 8/01/2013, D&C scheduled for 12/31/12 @9w4d
TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/10/2012 U/S #1 6w4d - heartbeat EDD 8/1/13
1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!