I know this sounds terrible, so flame away. But, I really do love my kids. I just kind of can't stand them right now.
I am tired of...
Kellen
- having my face grabbed and pulled on
- having his hands shoved in my mouth and cutting my gums
- having my hair pulled
- being bitten on the shoulder every damn time I hold him
- smelling pee, poop and spit up
- him fighting sleep SO hard that he usually wins because I just can't do it anymore.
- having him sit there whining for a toy when we both know damn well he could crawl if he wanted to.
- him crying for me EVERY TIME DH holds him. Enough is enough. Daddy is just as good.
Logan
- yelling at me, hitting me and just being plain out mean to me
- whining. DEAR GOD THE WHINING!
- complaining in general over everything. What we eat, where we go, what we do.
- acting like Nana is gods gift to the earth and I suck just because she doesn't have to discipline but I do.
- being rough with Kellen. JUST STOP!
- freaking out every. single. time he doesn't get what he wants. And I mean punching, screaming, FLIPPING out!
- Not listening to ANYTHING I say. It is like I am talking to myself sometimes.
Okay. Now I know these are normal 10 month old and 3 year old behaviors but right now I just want to run away. I feel like I am holding on by a tiny little thread and I am going to blow. On top of it DH is constantly asking whats wrong when I am stressed when he gets home from work, then when I tell him he looks at me like I am devil mother for talking badly about my kids. The list I could compile on what HE does to drive me nuts would take all day to read.
Sorry, this was such a pointless rant but I can't say it to anyone IRL without a side eye.
ETA- MrMrs- this would probably be a good time to tell me if you want to face punch me because I have already been punched so many times today it probably wouldn't even phase me.
Re: Tired of it all
I totally get it!! I always think there are too few people who admit that raising kids is really hard!!! And there are days that are just REALLY REALLY hard!!! Trust me. I know that it does not mean you don't love your kids more than life itself! We all do.
Do you ever get a break? Will your DH give you a few hours on a saturday to get a massage or get your nails done or have coffee with a friend? It definitely sounds like you need a break and your YDS could probably use a little daddy/son bonding.
I won't side eye you at all. Connor sounds just as guilty as your kids. SOmedays its a blessing that I get to go to work and be around grown ups. SAHM get huge props from me because spending much of your days with kids all week, every week is rough.
Being a mom is hard work.
That is really the most helpful anyone can be. I don't need parenting advice, kids are just hard. I need to remember it's okay to run away (for an hour of course
) and to know I am not the only one.
And I understand the feeling with your niece. Sometimes we just need adult time!
I hate that! I've tried to plan things for just my mom, sister and I a few times and my sister always brings my nephew. I said something once and she got all insulted and said she couldn't believe that I didn't want to spend time with my nephew. Grown up time is very underrated.
I've heard that 3 is the toughest age, I can only imagine how tough it is with a 10 month old too!
Never kick or punch a mom while she's down!
Sweetie, I'm so sorry you are at your wits end. I think we all get there eventually. If it was all rainbows and puppies we would all be the Duggar's and have kids for fun. Deep breath glass of wine and go to bed early. You aren't saying anything flame worthy!
I am completely on the same page as you probably more than I could even explain. You are not alone! Hugs
This post made me laugh because you actually made a list of the things each kid was doing that drove you nuts. It's funny (kind of), but probably made you feel better to just type it out! I'm inspired to make my own list for DD's annoying habits. And at the top of that list would totally be the face/hair/body grabbing in general. I love the kid, but I cannot stand when she treats me like a human monkey bar! I hope you feel better and that your baking night is just what you need!
And seriously, being a mom IS hard. People without kids really have no idea.
Thanks everyone. All of your support and understanding makes me feel better. Gets me out of my head where I am yelling at myself "YOU ARE A TERRIBLE MOTHER, YOU ARE GOING TO HELL FOR FEELING THIS WAY ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN!" Anyways, I love you guys