So DD is pretty much fully weaned to WCM and it didn't take as long as I thought it would. I'd say it's been about a week and she doesn't want much to do with breastfeeding at this point, which is the way it's supposed to happen I guess, but something has happened that I didn't expect.... I feel SO SAD about it. It's weird, I wanted to wean her, I'm happy that DH can spend more time with her at night and stuff, but now that the breastfeeding is pretty much over, I really miss it.
I don't know if it's so much that I miss the actual act of breastfeeding, or that I'm forced to accept that my baby is no longer the tiny little bundle that she was before, or if it's just raging hormones causing me to feel so blue, but this is hard.
I was warned by other friends who BF'd that this part would be hard, but I thought I was doing okay with it all until the last couple of days where DD really doesn't want or need to be BF'd. She's so mobile and all over the place that I barely can hold her, so I guess maybe I just miss the moments BFing where she was actually still and I could hold her.. Ugh, I don't know what it is, but I really need to snap out of it soon.
Sorry ladies, I just needed to get this out. As wonderful as it is that our LO's are growing up and doing well, and we'll all soon be experiencing all kinds of fun things, part of me just wants DD to stay tiny for much longer.
Re: BF blues :(
I stopped BFing a loooooong time ago and I still miss it. I loved the nighttime snuggles, and the bonding time. I'm not sure I will stop missingi t for a while, like 10-15 years!
It is a mixed blessing with them growing up isn't it? It is so exciting to see them grow and learn but at the same time I wonder every day where my baby went and who this toddler is in her crib!
Every stage of them growing up is bittersweet.