I used to get overly excited during the holiday season. I did early shopping, I bumped elbows for hours on Black Friday, wrapped presents as soon as possible, decorated my home, baked delicious treats for the helluvit, and so on.
Since losing my mom a little over two years ago, I haven't had the same excitement. Last year, my siblings didn't even get to see one another at all. It was always tradition for us to spend at least a few hours together Xmas Day. Granted, DH and I have been following tradition with his family on Xmas Eve for the past 9 years, I still haven't been able to feel any excitement the last 3 holidays.
I know it's about our girls now, but I still don't feel it anymore. I miss my mom a lot, and I can't deny her passing when holidays come around. All of my former tradition centered around her. I'm mad at her for leaving us, even though it wasn't her fault. I'm sad I will never get to see her again. I'm upset Nora never had the chance.
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Re: Bahumbug
I lost my dad 10 years ago and it still hits me, it will always be there, especially during the holidays. But you will make new family traditions and be able to see some of the magic again. Hugs.
Thank you, and I'm sorry about your dad. It still feels like yesterday I was talking with her. I can't wait for future holidays when DD will be more aware of the excitement surrounding the holidays. Hugs back!
Thank you. I need to take notes from you, because you may very well be Mrs. Claus from the level of your love for Christmas now. I know I will get there some day, but I feel bad that I feel bad.