Somewhere between multiple times a day and constantly. It certainly feels like they are always on my mind and have definitely shaped my life in both good and bad ways. I'm not sure I'll ever get to a point where they aren't on my mind.
For me it's very cyclical. I get WAY worse when I have an appointment coming up. On average, it's multiple times a day with sadness but when it's bad, it's many times a day with sadness and anxiety.
It's definitely multiple times a day for me, but not all of those times are explicitly thinking about my first baby -- some of them are just thinking about loss in general, if that makes sense. Even if it were just thinking about my first baby/pregnancy, though, it would still be multiple times a day.
Probably once, maybe a few times a week. I really only think about it when I hear someone else is pregnant, or someone on another board mentions their pregnancy. There's a girl on my "home" board who had the same due date as me, so it's REALLY hard to see her posts about cribs coming and feeling the baby kick. I like her a lot, I just avoid reading her baby posts
Being pregnant again, I think it will start to happen more. I'm already feeling a lot of anxiety as I get ready to get blood drawn and start to think about first appointments, etc.
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It varies.. depends on the day, what I'm doing, how I'm feeling, etc. If I'm having a crappy "down" kind of day, I could think of it numerous times.. and, even sometimes on a really good day I may think of it and think how different things would be if I hadn't had my previous losses..but, there are definitely days now where I may not think about it.. at least not consciously think about it.. having DS helps a ton.. gives me something to be "thankful" for.. and I try and make an effort not to dwell on the negative and focus on the positive..
I think it depends upon the day or week. I think about them at least once a day, but some days I think of them more than others. And, sometimes, the tears still come.
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I think about Annabelle constantly, but it doesn't dominate my mind like it used to (if that makes sense). My kids talk about her a lot and there are pics up of her, etc... so there are reminders everywhere. I do go through cycles where thinking of her is more of a memory thing and other times when sadness accompanies the memories, but just like my other children I am constantly thinking of her.
Somewhere between multiple times a day and constantly. It certainly feels like they are always on my mind and have definitely shaped my life in both good and bad ways. I'm not sure I'll ever get to a point where they aren't on my mind.
This exactly!
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
Re: CPW - How often do you think about your loss(es)?
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BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
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Probably once, maybe a few times a week. I really only think about it when I hear someone else is pregnant, or someone on another board mentions their pregnancy. There's a girl on my "home" board who had the same due date as me, so it's REALLY hard to see her posts about cribs coming and feeling the baby kick. I like her a lot, I just avoid reading her baby posts
Being pregnant again, I think it will start to happen more. I'm already feeling a lot of anxiety as I get ready to get blood drawn and start to think about first appointments, etc.
It varies.. depends on the day, what I'm doing, how I'm feeling, etc. If I'm having a crappy "down" kind of day, I could think of it numerous times.. and, even sometimes on a really good day I may think of it and think how different things would be if I hadn't had my previous losses..but, there are definitely days now where I may not think about it.. at least not consciously think about it.. having DS helps a ton.. gives me something to be "thankful" for.. and I try and make an effort not to dwell on the negative and focus on the positive..
This exactly!
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby