TTC After a Loss

Me and my empty ute are back

I hope you'll have me! 

Here's a quick summary of what you've all missed:

1. IUI cycle #1 was obviously a bust or I wouldn't be here. Planning cycle #2. That makes 4 failed TTC cycles plus 3 TTA cycles since the m/c. Freakin' yay. 

2. Starting seeing a naturopath. Diet includes: no coffee, no caffeine, no carbs, no sugar, no saturated fat, no artificial sweeteners, no alcohol (she obviously hates my guts), changed out all my cleaning products and personal care products with natural versions, trying to work out at 5:30 AM most mornings (not doing so well on this one yet).  I pretty much eat eggs, protein powder smoothies, eggs, and some fruit and veggies. Did I mention eggs? Having done this almost 2 weeks would you think I would have lost some weight? 1 lousy pound. Fluck you universe!

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3. Last week I ate so much Kale that my poo was green for 3 days. (I'll spare you a PIP on this one. You're welcome.)

4. Work is a complete nightmare, working 10-12 hour days and no end in site until well after the holidays.

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5. Our 1st year anniversary is coming up Dec. 9th and what should have been a happy time with our first baby in our arms will probably be just a dinner out (at which all I can eat is the garnish on the plate).  

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So that's it.  I've been stalking a bit here and there but I'm not at all up to speed on what's going on - I remember something about pretzel vajayjays and there's lots of 'vote for me for. . .' so it must be awards time?  Is there a most sad and pathetic award? Vote for me! Yay and stuff. 

I did miss you all though and I want to get caught on all the happenings. Hugs to everyone who needs them, I'm sorry I left you!  

**Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Sorry your IUI was a bust and to have you back but happy to see you and your gifs. That little garnish eating bun is quite cute!!
    BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

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  • Hi Boots, I was just thinking of you. I'm glad and not glad you're back...if you know what I mean. I know the protein diet takes a lot of discipline. I have done a very similiar diet several times throughout the last few years. I actually still eat about 5 egg whites a day, just got used to it I guess. Hugs

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  • Welcome back Boots. I've been thinking about you. *HUGS* And from reading what you've been up to, I think you better watch yourself. You might grow a fluffy white tail soon. It sounds like you are only eating rabbit food!

    TTC since April 2010
    BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
    BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
    Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
    BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
    Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
    BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
    BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
    No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
    June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
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  • Boots, this made me laugh! Welcome back, hon, and holycrapofadiet! It's great to see you, although rejoining us is not where any of us hoped you'd be. Good luck with this new path to your rainbow!
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    [[Hugs]] I've missed you around here Hun

    Missed you too Wicked. Have I told you how excited I am that you're TTC?? Maybe this will be the lucky cycle for both of us. We sure as sh!t deserve it.  

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Welcome back Boots. I'm so sorry You're still here, but you've been missed!
    Thanks for sparing us the kale pip. We briefly discussed the overuse of TMI on this board... That wouldn't have fallen into that category
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    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
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  • I'm so sorry the iui did not work out!  Your pics and description of your new diet are cracking me up.  I have also been ingesting an unusual amount of kale, so I feel ya.
    BFP #1- 12/3/09, EDD- 8/7/10, Missed M/C at 8 weeks & D&C- 1/5/10, BFP #2- July 2010, Baby Charlie Born March 29, 2011, BFP #3- 4/12/12- EDD- 12/21/12, Missed M/C at 10 1/2 weeks 5/29/12, D&C 6/1/12- testing results showed triploidy, IF testing all normal, February 2013- IUI#1, femara, follistim, trigger =BFN, March 2013- IUI#2, femara, follistim, trigger= BFP #4, 3/20/12, Beta#1 16dpo= 397, Beta #2 18dpo= 1037, Beta#3 24dpo= 11,589- EDD 11/30/13- It's a Girl!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BabyFruit Ticker
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    Welcome back Boots. I'm so sorry You're still here, but you've been missed! Thanks for sparing us the kale pip. We briefly discussed the overuse of TMI on this board... That wouldn't have fallen into that category

    Overuse of TMI!? Oh no, I picked the wrong time to come back!  

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • I know I shouldn't laugh at your misfortune, but this post made me LOL. I'm happy to see you back. I hope everything goes well for with you guys and you're not here long.

    Btw I wear the pjs you sent me all the time, and they're badass
    BFP #1 - Mango - 6/11/12, EDD 2/22/12 Natural MC 7/15/12
    BFP #2 - Nacho - 10/14/12, EDD 6/20/13, MMC 8 weeks, D&C 11/16/12
    All testing shows both H and I are perfectly normal. Baby Nacho had triploidy. 
    Back to normal business December 2012
    BFP #3 - Froggy - 1/15/13, EDD 9/27/13 TEAM GREEN
    It's a girl! Alice - Born 9/20/13, 8lbs 2oz

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  • I am sorry for your loss. There are no other words to say other than this just sucks that you have to go through all of this. I hope you and your husband can find a way to make your anniversary special. 

     

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    **BFP#1 9/5/12   EDD 5/15/13  changed to 5/25/13 after u/s,  missed mc 10/19/12.  D and C 10/22/12** 
     **BFP#2 9/12/13  EDD 5/16/14 changed to 5/27/14 after u/s, hb 126 on 10/11/13, miscarriage on 10/24.13**
    ~RPL testing results from 12/6/13 show everything normal except elevated prolactin. Blood work is now in the normal range. All AL welcome!
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    BFP 4 10/28/19 EDD 7/6/20
  • you have been missed!!
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    BFP #2 04/25/12 EDD 01/04/13(?) confirmed ectopic 05/16/12 6 wks 5 days 2 doses of MTX-Lost left tube on 05/25/12 Back to TTC, earlier than originally expected.
    BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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  • (((hugs))) I'm sorry you're back but glad to see you.

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  • *HUGS* sweetie, but welcome back.
    Me (28): fine, DH (28): MFI
    Married 6/21/09
    Off BCP and TTC 4/17/11
    BFP #1 (ended in CP) 7/15/11
    Varicocelectomy surgery 9/4/12 - T improved to normal, but still low count

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    imagekatharine25:
    Welcome back Boots. I'm so sorry You're still here, but you've been missed!
    Thanks for sparing us the kale pip. We briefly discussed the overuse of TMI on this board... That wouldn't have fallen into that category

    Overuse of TMI!? Oh no, I picked the wrong time to come back! &nbsp;



    No no no!! The discussion was the acronym TMI we still like the TMI!!!
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    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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    imagekatharine25:
    Welcome back Boots. I'm so sorry You're still here, but you've been missed! Thanks for sparing us the kale pip. We briefly discussed the overuse of TMI on this board... That wouldn't have fallen into that category

    Overuse of TMI!? Oh no, I picked the wrong time to come back!  

    No no no!! The discussion was the acronym TMI we still like the TMI!!!

    phew 

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Oh Boots, I'm so sorry for all this crap you've been dealt and that you are still with TTCAL.  I really wish you didn't have to be here, however it's really nice to have you back.  You're always welcome no matter what!  Sending you many hugs sweetheart!

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  • Big hugs, Boots. You've been missed. I am sorry you're coming back here and not going to PgAL though. 
    MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
    Rainbow Violet 
    born: 9/11/13

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  • Oh man, the only way I could follow that diet would be to not eat at all.  I hope it helps!

    BFP #1 8/14/10, DS born 4/30/11 
    BFP #2 9/30/12, M/C 10/23/12 
    BFP #3 12/16/12, CP 12/20/12 
    BFP #4 1/20/13, DD born 10/9/13
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  • Boots! I'm sorry you're back, but I'm still happy to see you. You've definitely been missed.
    TTC with MFI, PCOS, and endometriosis since February 2010
    BFP January 20,2012, Loss confirmed January 22,2012
    March-August 2012: Various medicated/IUI cycles, all BFN
    Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy October 2012: Fall Cleaning, Uterus Edition
    BFP 2-17-12 @12DPO Beta#1: 256 Beta#2: 1061
    EDD:10-27-13
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  • Sorry you find yourself back here but welcome nonetheless.  It looks like you have a lot of people here that want to help you on this tough journey.  ((hugs))  Add me to the list.
    TTC since June 2011
    BFP #1 11/18/11 - m/c 12/24/11 blighted ovum - EDD 08/01/12
    BFP #2 08/04/12 - m/c 08/29/12 no answers - EDD 04/17/13
    BFP #3 10/01/12 - m/c 10/30/12 uniparental disomy - EDD 06/04/13
    BFP #4 04/12/13 - EDD 12/22/13  It's a GIRL!
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  • Welcome back!  You were definitely missed around here!
    BFP #1: 3/3/12, EDD: 11/11/12, Missed M/C: 4/3/12 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 4/6/12
    BFP #2: 6/29/12, EDD: 3/8/13, Natural M/C: 7/16/12 @ 6 weeks 2 days
    Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, Hypothyroidism
    BFP #3: Kendall Grace, born 9/30/13
    BFP #4: 9/3/14, EDD: 5/16/15, Missed M/C: 10/6/14 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 10/8/14
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  • I've missed seeing you but hate that you still have to be here HUGS
    TTC since 4/28/07
    Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
    BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

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  • Boots!!! Glad you're back, but sorry you have to be!  Good luck with the eggs and rabbit food...I hope it does the trick for you!  Welcome back!!!

    BFP #1 4/10/12 D&C 6/5/12@ 12.5wks EDD 12/17/12
    BFP #2 9/10/12 CP 9/19/12@ 5.5wks EDD 5/21/13
    BFP# 3 12/3/12...Lukas James born 8/15/13
    BFP# 4 8/4/14 EDD 4/13/15

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  • Welcome back. Sorry u have to be here. Hope we have provided a few laughs...
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  • Boots! There you are! I'm sorry about the IUI dear. This road has been tough for you.

    I love your pips and gifs!

    I'm changing my diet right now to a no carb, sugar, alcohol or anything that tastes good depression too. Whomp, whomp, whomp!
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    BFP #1 9/1999. DD Born 6/7/2000
    BFP #2 10/2011. EDD 7/11/12. MMC discovered 11/2/11. D&C 11/4/11.
    DX PCOS 10/2012.
    BFP#3 1/11/13. DS Born 9/17/2013
    BFP#4 9/30/17. Grow baby grow! 
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  • Your diet sucks, but I know you are strong and want this enough that you can stick with it! FX that it brings you what you want.

    AND, I'm beyond thrilled to have you back! [Although, I wish it were just as a stalker from PgAL.]
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  • ((((Huge hugs)))) sweetie!
    (USE TO BE, WISH2BEMOMMY). 1st BFP ever Aug. 16, 2010.... 1st OB appt. Sept. 8, 2010, u/s showed poss. blighted ovum.... b/w 9/8/10 22,698 b/w 9/10/10 14,521.... mmc confirmed, started naturally m/c 9/15/10, d & c 9/16/10 I love you my precious monkey!! 2nd BFP March 2011.... c/p, miss you lil one!! 3rd BFP Nov. 20, 2011, subcornial hemorrhage detected 11/24/11 heartbeat found.... LO's heartbeat lost 11/25/11.... d & c 11/26/11..... I love and miss you so much baby!!!! C/P 4/26/12.... gone before I knew you.... off BCP 10-1-13.. BFP 11-20-13.. SCH for 7 weeks.. 3-4-14: It's a Girl!.. 4-22-12 emergency cerclage placed..7-7-14 cerclage removed at 36w.. delivered Lillian Marie 7-28-14..
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    Six years of infertility and loss, four IUIs, one IVF and one very awesome little boy born via med-free birth 10.24.13.
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  • Hi Boots!  We've missed you!

    TTC started Oct '10
    Me: AMA w/RSD, atypical PCOS w/IR, LPD and High Prolactin. Controlled HP post-loss.
    DH: Low-T and borderline morph
    18 cycles, 3 medicated w/RE to get to a BFP!
    EDD 9/7/12, Saw HB @7w3d,missed m/c 1/30 @8w3d, d&c 2/8
    11 AL cycles, 9 medicated/IUI cycles. All BFFN!
    Moving forward with IVF
    BFP#2 our little cycle break surprise on AL cycle 12! EDD 10/27/13
    Beta #1: 41 Beta #2: 398; perfect u/s 3/11 hb @133bpm
    u/s 3/25 one perfect hb @183 bpm, adjusted EDD 10/23/13
    MaterniT21 and carrier screens normal. It's a girl!!!
    Severe Pre-E, HFpEF, PE, AMA & IF= OAD

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    Boots - I've thought of you often since you took your break! I'm glad to see you back around. BIG fat squishy hugs.


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    BFP 07/27/2012 - Beta 1 - 169 @ 11 DPO, Beta 2 - 419 @ 13 DPO, DD Born on 04/04/2013.


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  • ((HUGS)) I've been chart stalking you and I was so sad when this cycle ended in a bust.
    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
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  • So sorry for everything you're going through. I'm new here after a recent mmc with my first so you won't recognize me but I wanted to say thanks for sharing your wonderful sense of humour. Smiles and laughter are few and far between right now and the humorous approach you took to sharing your pain and frustration with gifs and what not was comforting to read even if the news isn't positive. I don't know if that makes sense, I hope it did.
    BFP#1 9/28/2012 - EDD 6/3/2013 - MMC discovered 11/21/2012 @ 12w2d - D&C 11/24/2012
    BFP#2 4/4/2013 - Born at 37w3d on 11/26/13 via emergency c-section
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  • So sorry that you have to be back here. Sending lots of Hugs your way! I I am also sorry that you cant eat carbs or drink alcohol. Thats just cruel. 
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  • Big ((hugs)) boots! It sucks so bad that you have to come back here, but I'm glad to hear from you. There have been lots of wonderings about you around here since you took your break - you are definitely loved!


  • I'm so sorry that you find yoruself back here. Sometimes it really gets me that such great people struggle so much. I did enjoy your gifs though, and you bring so much to the board. 
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  • Sorry you have to come back to this board...but welcome back! You have been missed.
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  • Thanks ladies for the warm welcome back. It means a lot to me!
    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Sorry you're having a rough time, Boots.  But welcome back!  You've been missed!
    PAIF/SAIF, PGAL/PAL welcome.
    TTC since March 2010 ~ Dx Unexplained IF September 2011
    2011: IUI + Clomid = CP#1
    2012: 3 more IUIs + Clomid = 3 more CPs. One on-our-own pg, also CP
    2013: BTB IUI + Lupron/Follistim/Prometrium/PIO = CP #6
    IF testing, RPL testing, Autoimmune testing = all normal
    So lost.
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    Sorry you're having a rough time, Boots.  But welcome back!  You've been missed!

    HAHA love your new pic. I feel you on that one.

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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