Last night I was looking at DD and realizing she is growing up so fast. I was looking at her little feet and noticed how big they are getting. I was reminiscing of when she was so tiny. I don't know if it's the holidays coming up or the fact that my friend had a baby yesterday or that I am reading a book and one of the characters is pregnant (I didn't know this when I started the book). I just can't snap out of it this week.
I want to be pregnant, I want DD to have a sibling. I have been so positive this whole year and now I feel like it is never going to happen. Just feeling sorry for myself. I kept always saying, "I will be pregnant by Christmas"
Now I am in the 2WW on my cancelled cycle. I hate waiting.
Pregnant with Letrazole (Femara) on the first cycle with DD after TTC 2+ years
TTC#2 with Letrazole (Femara) since January 2012
BFP 06.29.12 EDD 03.11.13 natural m/c 07.13.12
BFP 09.22.12 EDD 05.31.13 natural m/c 10.07.12
CP 11.09.12
BFP 01.01.13 EDD 09.15.13 d&c 01.24.13
BFP 03.26.13 EDD 12.04.13
Re: I need to snap out of my sadness.
Love, luck, and prayers to my BFPB Dr. SnowflakeBride
BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11!
TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP
Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
MPZ born June 2011
TTC #2 ... Cycle 1-3: IUI = BFN | Cycle 4: IVF ... canceled but 3 snow babies
Cycle 5: FET .. BFP! | EDD - 3/15/2014
I have been crying about this all week as well, since my BFN I got on Sunday. This was my first IVF cycle but I just don't understand why this is happening. It was so easy to have the first one, how could this be happening to us. I am still in disbelief. My DD asks when she will have a little sister all the time and I just have no answers. I feel more disappointed for her than any of us. She lines up her dolls and tells them she has to play with them because she doesn't have a sister. OMG, I just feel hopeless.
I could have written the exact same post, my DD is 27 months, I am tinged with sadness as how grown up she is and how I haven't/can't give her a sibling.
I am constantly surrounded by friends having more babies, i feel like the universe is laughing at me.