Am I the only one who tries to wait as long as humanly possible to go to the bathroom when you're almost certain you're going to find AF? I hold my breath, say a quick prayer, and can usually not bring myself to look for a few seconds. It's silly, really. I mean, what's done is done. If it's coming, it's coming. But I guess I just want to try to shield myself from heartbreak for just a few more minutes.
For the last 2 days, this has been my pattern. I was a tiny bit crampy, an extreme bit b*tchy, and threw up twice monday night. Every time I felt like I had to pee, I had to give myself a freaking pep talk before I walked into the bathroom. I had tested a little early, which of course came up negative. Today was 15dpiui, the day the nurse told me to actually test (like any of us listen to them ever). Anywell - I woke up this morning to AF and another mother trucking BFN. I am officially a train wreck and am trying to get my shizz together to drive to RE's office and get my baseline ultrasound and figure out what to do next. I'm a pretty sarcastic and often slightly cynical person, but I can't lie and say that I didn't have a little glimmer of hope that this cycle might actually work. Silly me.
Anyways... thanks for listening to my woes. I hope that at least a few of you will turn your panic from having to pee into a super happy trip to the potty this cycle. Fingers crossed for all of you.
Re: Crossed my legs, fought the urge to go...
TTC since 10/2010 (Rhythm method since 2007)
September 2014 DX Hashimoto's; November 2014: PCOS IR
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DH (37) Sept 2012 SA Normal; October 2014 Mild MFI count 42 Million, Motility 36%, Morphology 2%. Clomid 50mg,
2004 Cyrosurgery, LEEP
July 2012 - October 2012 - Clomid 50mg W/ TI & Progesterone 3 mature follicles- BFN
January 2013 IUI #1 (900,000 post wash) Clomid 50mg, TI & Progesterone 2 mature follicles - BFN
February 2013 IUI #2 (1.3 Mil post wash) Clomid 50mg, TI & Progesterone 4 mature follicles - BFN
March 2013 IUI #1-3 (2.5 mil post wash) Clomid 50mg, Baby Aspirin (lining thinned) TI & Progesterone - 2 mature follicles BFN
April 2013 Benched due to cyst, May 2013 WTF appointment
June 2013 DH SA mild MFI break for 2 months to re-test; August 2013 - DH SA 36 Mil count, 36% Motility, Morp 2%
September - December 2013 - Mental sanity Break
January 2014 - IUI #4 switches to natural due to scheduling conflict Femara TI & Progesterone - 1 mature follicle - BFN
May 2014-June 2014 - DH Appointment w/ Urologist to check Bi-lateral Varicocele; 2nd opinion w/ another urologist - bi-lateral varicocele dx is slight no surgery
July 2014 DH starts clomid 25mg daily SA 53.8 Mil count, Motility 37%, Morph 3%;
September 2014 DH Repeat SA after being on clomid for 3 months 42 Mil Count, Motility 36%, Morph 2%
October 2014 Me: Hashimoto's DX, DH taken off clomid;November 2014 Me: new RE PCOS IR Diagnosis
December 2014: IUI #4 Follitism 75iu 7 days, TI, IUI & Progesterone, BFMFN
January 2015: IUI #5 Gonal-F 75iu 7 days, TI, IUI & Progesterone, Another BFMFN onto IUI #6
Me too. By the time I'm at the point when I think AF might show, I've already had several bfns and have stopped taking progesterone, so I'm actually eager for it to show so that I can move on and try again.
My bathroom meltdowns happen around 14 or 15 dpo when I get that last bfn and know it didn't work.
TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!
Mr. & Mrs. - Est. 10.03.2009
TTC #1 since 06.2011 Me-24 DH-24
12.2011 SA = Normal
06.2012 First visit with OB/GYN
10.2012 Clomid 50mg + TI = BFN
11.2012 Clomid 50mg + TI = BFN
12.2012 Clomid 100mg + TI = BFN
01.2013 First visit with RE
02.2013 Clomid 150mg + TI = BFN
03.2013 Femara 5mg + TI = BFN
05.2013 Femara 5mg + TI = BFN
06.2013 Femara 7.5mg + TI = BFN
*Taking a break*
I do this! I don't necessarily hold my pee but I do hold my breath when I go to the potty. I slowly take my clothes down hoping not to see AF. I'm super excited when she's not there because then I can add one more day to my dpo count.
Sorry about the BFN.
~TTC#1
Began seeing RE in June 2011, not preventing since 2006
Me: 31, DH: 31
DH: SA perfect
DX: Fibroids, uterine polyps, tubal factor
5 failed clomid cycles
IUI#1 in Jan 2013 = BFN
On to IVF
11/1- IUI#1,12/1- IUI#2, 1/2- IUI#3 all BFFN
IVF#1. Long Lupron.ER 3/8 10R,4M,5F. ET 3/3-one 1AB, 2 frosties 5dp5dt-BFP!! Beta 3/25-794 Beta 3/27- 1794
First u/s 4/8 saw hb. 4/22 missed mc 8w3d. d&c 4/26
FET #1- bcp start 6/9. ET 7/12. 2 perfect blasts.5dpt-BFP!!
Same here! I think I go at least 20x a day making sure she isn't coming.
OP - I'm sorry about the BFN. It always sucks when you really think maybe this is your month and it doesn't happen ((Hugs))
TTC #1** Went off BCP July 2011
Me: 31 DH:31
Jan 2012 Dx PCOS by OB/Gyn
July 2012 - Tests with RE confirmed PCOS and annovulation
Me: 06/12 Dx w/ IR PCOS (rx 2000 metformin) DH: SA all clear; looking good
06/12-10/12- Clomid/Femara + trigger + TI + P4 = 3 BFNs, hysteroscopy, polypectomy, D&C
11/12 - 7.5 mg Femara + trigger + IUI + P4 = BFN
12/12 - Surprise BFP ectopic (MTX 01/13)
04/13 - Off the Bench! 7.5 mg Femara + trigger + IUI #2 + estradiol + P4 = BFN
05/13 Clear HSG-5 mg Femara + Menopur + trigger + IUI #3 + P4 = BFP ectopic (MTX 07/03 & 07/11)
07/23 emergency lap to remove ectopic mass and left tube
I'm sorry about the BFN.
No, I don't hold it when I'm expecting AF. I'm always afraid of accidents- the AF kind, not peeing in my pants!
Off BC since 9/10;TTC since 7/11
Me: 31 DH: 31
DX: PCOS/anovulatory/Hypothyroid
SA: normal
HSG: all clear
5 cycles of Clomid/Femara + TI
IUI #1 (7/16/12) Femara 2.5,+ Trigger=BFN
Treatment break Aug. 2012-June 2013
IUI #2 (7/27/13)=BFP!!!
Beta #1 @ 13dpiui --145!
Beta #2 @ 19dpiui--2,550!