My f/u u/s is finally almost here, I'm super super nervous! At last weeks u/s fetal pole measured a week behind & heartbeat was low at 77, since then all of my symptoms have gone away....tomorrow we finally get to see if this LO is going to make it....going to bed super early hoping that will make tomorrow come faster! Thanks for listening....we haven't told any family or friends yet due to previous losses so it feels good to get it out!
Re: Praying for a strong hb tomorrow!!
DD born 12.21.09, conceived w/ injects and IUI
TTC#2 since Nov 2011
BFP 2.6.12 m/c 6w5d | BFP 5.25.12 c/p
-Back to the RE-
3 medicated IUIs, all BFN
-Taking a break from treatment-
BFP 11.20.12 ~ EDD 7.28.13
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2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
BFP #1 - missed m/c 4.18.11 found @8w3d, d&c @13w
BFP #2 blighted ovum found 8.2011 @8w, misoprostol
BFP#3 - missed m/c 6.11.12 @ 9w3d, d&c revealed extra chromosome 15
BFP#4 8.10.12, DD born 4/26/13
Me 41 DH 46 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. TTC #2 **5th cycle 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy is due 04/28/13!!
Sadly, no improvement was seen:(. They said there is 0% chance of survival and that we just have to wait for the hb to stop so the baby passes...I don't know that I've ever been this sad...even losing our twins at 9 weeks i Feb seemed less difficult because when we had out first u/s then they had already passed, (or maybe it just seems like it was less painful because some time has passed) yes it was a severe shock & earth shatteringly sad but this "sit & wait" for the hb to stop is torture for me:(.
I asked about a d&c and they said they won't schedule it until the hb has stopped "just in case" so I thought there might be hope but she said no chance so I think it's more of a liability thing....now I have to sit and wait until Monday to see if the hb stops and if not then more waiting....I would not wish this upon anyone, I feel like I should be saying goodbye to my LO but knowing there is still a hb makes it impossible:(
I hope you all have happy & healthy pregnancies....hopefully I'll be back soon!
Over-40 parents...what we lack in vigor, we make up for with cunning.
Thank you all! I truly appreciate all the kind words, thoughts & prayers...it's been a tough few days and I think the next few are going to be even worse...however, I'm going to stay positive that I will be back (and hopefully soon as time is a huge concern for us!).
DH and I talked it over & we're going to try again right away, Dr recommends waiting one cycle but with his travel for his civilian job (he'll be gone 2wks in feb & 3 wks in march) and his pending deployment in April for one year that basically leaves us Jan. Most of my research has shown that the wait is primarily for emotional reasons & to allow the uterus to recover...going to leave it in God's hands...if it's not meant to happen then we'll go back to charting, testing and fertility meds for Jan and if I have to travel to where DH is when I ovulate or we need to have some semen frozen then so be it!
Thanks again for listening & all the support...hope to be back soon!
I agree that you should just keep trying. Your body will do what it needs to be ready, so it shouldn't matter. My coworker/friend got pregnant with her daughter the month following her loss, so clearly the body can regroup quickly. I wish you the same good luck.
And ((hugs)).
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