Super scared and trying to breathe (Intro)

Acojen · November 2012

I have been going back and forth about posting an intro because of how afraid I am that something will happen. I got a positive test (or 8) but it still just isn't sinking in. I want this baby desperately but I'm scared to get excited.

My history is in my siggy but to sum it up I am 31 hubby is 32 and this is my fourth pregnancy. I have a DD who just turned 8 from a previous marriage. This will (hopefully) be DH's first.

I have an appointment tomorrow to check hcg and progesterone and I just can't shake my feeling of dread that it will be bad news. I'm sorry this intro is a little disjointed but that is where I'm at right now.

So can I come hang out with you wonderful ladies and can I borrow some gorilla glue?

Acojen · November 2012

It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

alb245 · November 2012

Welcome and congrats!

AudUy · November 2012

I'm sorry for your previous losses.

Congratulations on your pregnancy. Grab some glue and have a seat!

densquared · November 2012

I'm so sorry for your losses, I truly hope this is your rainbow!

whiteroses05 · November 2012

Welcome! Sorry for your losses! Hope you have H&H 9 months!

SunshinyLees · November 2012

Congratulations, wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months!! XO

Acojen · November 2012

Thank you ladies so much!

Mmm79 · November 2012

I am so sorry for your losses and hope this is a sticky baby! Welcome.

krwact · November 2012

Congrats and welcome!!! It's all so scary, but pull up a sticky chair and stay a while! :-)

Acojen · November 2012

Thank you all for the warm welcome. Hoping and praying for all of our rainbow babies.

misternmiss · November 2012

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Confused

Acojen · November 2012

misternmiss:
Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

DCWJes · November 2012

Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

misternmiss · November 2012

Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

Too bad the support was not reciprocated; nice way to slap us in the face. (was it fun chatting with a bunch of women who are trying to recover from their losses while you are pregnant?)

Acojen · November 2012

misternmiss:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

Too bad the support was not reciprocated; nice way to slap us in the face. (was it fun chatting with a bunch of women who are trying to recover from their losses while you are pregnant?)

I didn't know I was pregnant when I was in the chat I had taken a test the day before and it was negative so I didn't think I was. I too am trying to recover from my loss and I really don't know what I did that was a slap in the face but I am truly sorry if I hurt you or anyone else.

Acojen · November 2012

DCWJes:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

WTH? The chat was Friday night and I did not know then. I was attempting to get to know everyone better on the board and that is why I wanted to participate in the chat.

DCWJes · November 2012

Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

WTH? The chat was Friday night and I did not know then. I was attempting to get to know everyone better on the board and that is why I wanted to participate in the chat.

You really had no idea that you would be testing before chatting? What was the point in going into chat?

I really don't know you and you really didn't chat while in the chat room. Best of luck though.

Acojen · November 2012

DCWJes:
Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

WTH? The chat was Friday night and I did not know then. I was attempting to get to know everyone better on the board and that is why I wanted to participate in the chat.

You really had no idea that you would be testing before chatting? What was the point in going into chat?

I really don't know you and you really didn't chat while in the chat room. Best of luck though.

I explained why I wanted to join the chat but clearly you guys have your mind made up already. If it makes you feel better to hurt somebody that is already hurting then so be it. Again I am sorry but no I really didn't know.

HoolahZinger · November 2012

Congratulations and welcome! I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months!

misternmiss · November 2012

Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

WTH? The chat was Friday night and I did not know then. I was attempting to get to know everyone better on the board and that is why I wanted to participate in the chat.

You really had no idea that you would be testing before chatting? What was the point in going into chat?

I really don't know you and you really didn't chat while in the chat room. Best of luck though.

I explained why I wanted to join the chat but clearly you guys have your mind made up already. If it makes you feel better to hurt somebody that is already hurting then so be it. Again I am sorry but no I really didn't know.

I just find it a little inappropriate that you "wanted to get to know us better" through the chat (while you never really seemed to make the attempt on the board) knowing that you were going to test and potentially get a + the next morning.

And I think you have the fact that we "hurt somebody that is already hurting" wrong. Or at least, backwards.

Acojen · November 2012

misternmiss:
Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
DCWJes:
Acojen:
misternmiss:

Acojen:
It won't let me edit but I was so scrambled I forgot to say thank you to the awesome TTCAL ladies. I was not a frequent poster but you guys were definitely a bright spot during a very dark time. Thank you so so much!

Not sure what I did to deserve that....

I know exactly what you did to deserve that side eye. There are numerous women giving it to you right now. Your chart states that you got a + test on Saturday. You practically begged the other women to come into chat. While you knew you were pregnant. If I am wrong, please correct me. The chat room was made for women who are TTC not currently pregnant. We are all trying towards the same goal, although it seemed that you were a step closer than us. That is why you deserve the side eye.

WTH? The chat was Friday night and I did not know then. I was attempting to get to know everyone better on the board and that is why I wanted to participate in the chat.

You really had no idea that you would be testing before chatting? What was the point in going into chat?

I really don't know you and you really didn't chat while in the chat room. Best of luck though.

I explained why I wanted to join the chat but clearly you guys have your mind made up already. If it makes you feel better to hurt somebody that is already hurting then so be it. Again I am sorry but no I really didn't know.

I just find it a little inappropriate that you "wanted to get to know us better" through the chat (while you never really seemed to make the attempt on the board) knowing that you were going to test and potentially get a + the next morning.

And I think you have the fact that we "hurt somebody that is already hurting" wrong. Or at least, backwards.

I did not do anything knowingly or intentionally to hurt you but what you are doing here is intended to be malicious and hurtful. You have already completely ruined this for me so tell me what exactly it is that you want.

katiesept24 · November 2012

Welcome and congrats. I am in the same boat that you are right now. I am so scared that I dont even want to let myself get excited about it. My husband is also scared and we told my parents last night (I at least wanted someone else to know) and I could see the fear in their eyes also. I think I will feel better after I go to the doctor on Tuesday even though I know they wont have an ultrasound or anything because its so early.

km_md · November 2012

I don't think this is going to get anywhere, but I'll say my piece anyway. Don't you dare call these women malicious and hurtful! They are anything but that, and if you had taken the time to get to know them on the board, you wouldn't be having this problem. Misternmiss explained the appropriateness (or lack thereof) of you joining a chatzy with us knowing that you were going to test and none of us even knew you at all. And you think you are the one hurting in this situation? You, with a live DD and now another BFP. Not the women who are going through a loss right now, or who have no children, or who cannot get pregnant without treatments. I know that not every bfp leads to a rainbow, but seriously give your head a shake before talking about them like that.

orangegoggles · November 2012

Congrats and welcome!

Acojen · November 2012

katiesept24:
Welcome and congrats. I am in the same boat that you are right now. I am so scared that I dont even want to let myself get excited about it. My husband is also scared and we told my parents last night (I at least wanted someone else to know) and I could see the fear in their eyes also. I think I will feel better after I go to the doctor on Tuesday even though I know they wont have an ultrasound or anything because its so early.

I hope your appointment goes well on Tuesday and that you are able to breathe a little easier!

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