I'm supposed to be getting married on Saturday, June 22, 2012. Our families know. The venue is reserved. I paused planning for the wedding in August to help my friend and sister plan my baby shower and to start decorating my nursery. Then all plans stopped when I lost my daughter. Instead I planned a funeral. Since then, I've tried planning for the wedding again (complete with a Pinterest board) but my heart isn't in it anymore. There was supposed to be a 7 month old in my wedding. There was supposed to be a special daddy/daughter dance at my reception. I don't want to have to incorporate her in other ways. I want her there.
What do I do? I dread making the plans. I don't want to celebrate. I just miss my daughter.